This is all very true

huggles

You are not those things. You are the opposite of those things

agreed. Group

I've just been in a shitty sort ever since I realized that I am not ready to graduate and I don't know if there's anything I can do about it

and talking with my advisor today helped but also made me realize just how many personal flaws I have in regards to it, much less how much my career choice is tied into self loathing

because I think I love acting, and I've never been able to imagine doing something else,

but then why haven't I done so much more for it?
why is it that I use it so much as an outlet to be comfortable by not being myself?

I wish I knew what to tell you dear. ono

And I wish I knew how to help you with this. oxo

okay so do you mean not ready to graduate emotionally or like. credits-wise?

both, credits wise I can fudge, but not experience

okay. i think the most important thing to remember is that not putting 100% effort into something you enjoy does not make you a bad person.

it's okay to fail. it's okay to make mistakes. it's okay to be into something because it helps you like yourself.

it's also important to remember that things like acting, writing, roleplaying, those are all escapist in a way, sure

but that doesn't mean they aren't part of you

taking on different roles and acting out different lives is a healthy way of coping and lots of people find comfort in it

but it's also okay not to be completely devoted to things

you aren't a fuckup.

you're a good person. your career and education decisions do not define you as a person.

and you sure as hell aren't a burden. we love you.

I just don't know where to go from here I guess

I...can maybe think of a few ideas? I mean, acting wise, I'm not sure if you mean where to go mentally or with your acting

or after you graduate

dear

Imma help you out as best I can, I swear. holds I promise