My metaphorical heart is like heavy, but I think it's less because I'm really sad, and more because I haven't had any opportunity to process my emotions.

I have the ability to not feel things fully if I have other things to do. This is usually terrible because I have not known this to be the case in the past.

But I truly think I'm more ok with this situation than I was with other situations similar because the circumstances are really better.

Even still, I haven't given myself the opportunity to experience this fully... So it's weighing a bit.

I'm glad I recognize this to be the case. I can get through my finals and then really tackle this issue.

Whereas in the past, I didn't know that I was doing this and really normalized the heavyness in my throat and chest so that I could ignore it forever.

Well... "ignore" isn't the right word... "not recognize" would be better.

More happier news exists, but I have to go. Believe you me, though. []