and she started texting me this morning and now she's like "hey we should get together and meet up someday!"

and I'm like UH GO OUTSIDE TALK TO PEOPLE UH. . . .

but of course I can't jst say "I don't go outside like ever" so I said 'okay sure i'd just have to run it by my dad first'

LIKE I REMEMBER THIS GIRL BUT AT THIS POINT I'M NOT THAT CLOSE TO HER??

and speaking of going out i still need to see if my dad's okay with me going out with assby

like what do people even do when they go out i'd be so lost and idk i just. don't. kjhkjfhkjsf

you just talk about anything!!! and yessss do so!!

also she's got a job and she's going to college soon and shit and just like i bet she's got a car too like i have reasons for not being at that level so i'm not like 'b'aw i feel inadequate' but

idk

it's still awkward

I have plenty of reasons for not being as 'successful' as everyone thought I'd be when I graduated, but it still felt weird going to my reunion. Even when I didn't feel like I was a failure or anything.

So I think I kind of understand that feeling.

As far as what people do when they go out... you just talk about stuff. If you're an awkward turtle like me, you suggest going out for food or drinks so you can hide behind the comestibles and let them talk

people loooove talking about themselves, so as long as you appear engaged in the convo...

ffffffffffffffffffff

i don't have any sort of reunion to go to--even if i did i probably wouldn't

hey just aren't my thing

but aah going out for food sounds easy enough haha and letting her talk sounds easy too. . . .

then again i kind of remember her not being too talkative but that was years ago so who knows