life is short, with lots of unexpected twists and turns, filled with lots of delayed consequences to decisions made,sometimes long forgotten
sometimes the consequences do strike sooner than expected. some are quick and fast while some are slower and softer
it is debatable whether life is worth living, whether it is worth fighting for, if so, for whom? myself ? my family ? my friends ?
if I do so for myself, what if I want to give up? if I do so for family and friends, what if they don't understand or appreciate it?
when I see foolishess and selfishness, do I really know the whole story? the complex intertwined of relationships , events and circumstances
makes it difficult to see it all, understand or even make sense if it.
life is a mystery, these are the words that not only marks the laziness and trying to confuse those who actually believes in it.
life is only a mystery when no one bothers to learn about it, to go and discover what it is and what does it have to do with my being here..
I want to say that I am living or fighting for my family or friends. Perhaps it is nothing but a fear of responsibilities; if I should fail
I did it for them. so the blame would not be on me. I want to say that I am living for myself but that would be condemned as selfishness.
I am only human and constrained by time and space. time being a limited being with an expiration date and required rest or sleep etc.
space being I can only travel from 1 location to the next and not physically present at multiple places at a time, etc.
that is one of the reasons why I can only see part of anything or even nothing of anything; no way of fully understanding 100% of anything
hence, why bother?
I am lost from Day 1 ... life must go on. Is this a lie from the beginning? The preprogrammed Self Preservation Code in our DNA? ....
so we are all forced to continue on , fighting , in a maze like life, going nowhere but not realising it. and the need to procreate ...
that is part of our DNA? So we will all continue on for thousands of years, even 10 of thousands years
life is a mystery ...life must go on ... live life to the fullest. who defines the standard of fullness or the opposite, zero or hollowness
these are just words that we tell ourselves , myself included, I tell others and do try to live it...with extreme confusion and heartache
it is but a general sentence or guide with no specific applications. And it only serves to confuse us even more
good night 
✖ Loon Ton ✖
says
✖ Loon Ton ✖
says
good night