i fucked up i don't even want to explain how

but in short i will have to physically attend high school for my last year provided the local one will let me

which will probably be good because i think iw as too comfortable at home which is why my work halted or whatever

/huuuugs

furthermore i already went over that i might be depressed

i called a psychologist to make an appointment(which took so time because i couldn't compose myself enough to make the call haha)

(eventually I did of course! but it took a little while)

Uh. I guess I don't have as much to say as I thought I would lol

BUT UH I'M ALIVE AND STUFF I'm doing about as well as I can

another Neopets event started called Daily Dare--except the usual star is off at summer camp so his sister(whom usually hosts with him) called one of his classmates to help her host it

she's got a crush on him but the guy is so paifully full of himself like he actually CHANGED THE SITE LAYOUT TO PUT HIS FACE EVERYWHERE

AND SHE'S LIKE "WTF ARE YOU DOING THIS IS AOUT THE GAMES NOT YOU" but it's hilarious

also my brother talked to me about game of thrones

if i had the attention span for television shows(I think attention span might be another problem i have and didn't consider) I'd probably watch it because it seems amazing

uhm

there anything else to say lol just

hi guys /;o;/ i miss you but i have an uneventful life and i know you don't gaf about my neopets shit(and if you did those of you with tumblrs would follow my neoblog)

so i don't really have anything to share with you haha ;w;;

anyway how're the rest of you? ;o;/ and /huuuuuuuuugs sosogami back!!

/flops in here to join the cuddles :]

/cuddlepartyyyyy

Cuddle party? 'w' /joins the cuddle because cuddles are great

cuddlepartyyyy

i'm glad you're going to a psychiatrist. ;w; i think it's important. i went to one for years and it does help

someday, things just click and you learn how to analyse yourself

if you ever want to talk to someone about depression or anxiety or just shoot the breeze, feel free to contact me. i worry about you.

i hope going to school will help with the depression

I think it will. I feel like, if I can get things done(which I won't have much of a choice to if I physically attend school) I'll definitely feel less crappy.

On the other hand, even before I didn't really feel a lot? Like I was usually indifferent if not rather content but it didn't really register as a negative indifference.

But hopefully it'll help /o\ Though I'm not sure I have anxiety. . .but I suppose I'm judging that based on that I've never had an anxiety attack(unless the descriptions I've read have been incorrect.)

i didn't mean to assume. i just meant if you wanted to talk about it in the future. but not everyone has it. it just goes hand in hand with my own depression

If it's anxiety, it's probably pretty minor. >: I mean, all of it might be minor but idek being that I'm not a professional

so if you don't have to worry about it, more power to you!

one less thing to worry about!

Oh, I know.! ;o; I'm sorry if I sounded like I thought you were assuming. I suppose I was just musing. But I'll remember. ;;/ thank you!

(going out to eat now so if I don't respond I'm just doing that.)

(yes! go eat!)

Tararararaaaa I miss youuu ;w; I hope things start getting better from here on out! I know personally I find it difficult to do things unless there's a teacher coaching me so maybe it'll help you.

\;o;/ Scheduled psychologist apointment for next wednesday! And food made me feel quite a ways better--and I think a teacher would, too.

It's not so much coaching, I think, as it is being forced to sit there and have nothing but the work to do

(whereas, at home, I'm sitting in front of the computer and I can even just go outside and wander off if I want to and nothing's really there to stop me)

also, in looking at the symptoms, add is also a possibility, I think.

Good to have you back \ ^o^ /