ah yes the good old past time of getting told i ruin everything and that being around me makes someone angry

or being told that my opinion doesn't matter and my feelings aren'

t valid because "you have no power over me"

yeah but you're always so fucking quick to show me what kind of power you've got over me when you break my glasses or choke me

you're always so quick to make sure i know that you could take my shit at any time and say that i was doing something wrong and our parents would be fine with it

i'm so tired of feeling like i don't have a voice here because any time i try to voice a concern i get told "you have to accept it"

fuck that, fuck this, i don't have to accept jack shit i might sit here and pretend to with a smile but i will never accept it

and you'll just have to accept that i won't be around any longer than i have to be once i can get the means to leave

i'm sitting here with a lump in my throat because i have to hold back all of my frustration and hurt feelings just so i don't get called names or made fun of

and i am so sick of it