i thought i was over this but a group of friends went out yesterday to see monsters u and it seems they had fun

hah, and it feels sort of weird because i was under the impression i had a good enough relationship with them but i only found out because of a few status updates on fb

and i was busy anyways yesterday but. i don't know i just got this hollow feeling in my chest for not even knowing of it until now

but i guess i know where they're coming from? i'm just panicky and a big idiot who doesn't talk a lot while being out and i'm no fun to hang around with

not to mention one of the persons who went there possibly hates me and convinced everyone else not to invite me, she has enough influence to do so ;;

i'm so sorry i'm being a huge baby over this i already saw the movie and i'm just being so stupid and i'm sorry i'm sorry i'm sorry