I'm really connecting with Lauren lately, and I'd like to see her develop in a game.

Although, I'm kind of worried that her character development in a game might make it harder to write her in canon.

idk. I've kind of dealt with that okay in the past.

And possibly considering I'm taking care of my ADHD it might not be as much of a problem?

I guess a good idea is to get a feel for the workload I'm getting myself into and then deciding if I have time for a game.

At the same time, though, I feel like I'm not getting as much creativity done? Which is a major part of my beingokayfeel.

Then again, I wouldn't have as much time to devote to fiction, which is problematic. mrr.

I could also play a character that's not Lauren, but idk. I'm really enjoying her lately and as I said before, I'd like to see her develop in another situation.

She's also not horribly introverted, like a lot of my characters, so she'd probably do better in another game?

I guess I could play Molly. Although, if I wanted to play Molly, it would be twin!Molly who has a lot of processing issues and would be harder to get CR with.

There's always the option of Ela, who is definitely extroverted when she's not depressed and locks herself in a room forever.

Her canon is kind of embarrassing, though, considering she's an angelvampire, which might make people think she's Sue-ish.

And again, I'm working on her story right now, which leads to the problem of possibly having issues with out-of-canon development.

I could also play Loren, but I'm not always entirely comfortable with that because he's the biggest gay stereotype ever and I don't want to make people uncomfortable.

/ponders

I guess I have more extroverts than I thought.

Loren could be a lot of fun in a game, considering he can't help it but impulsively commit crime, though.

Of course that would probably lead to negative CR, which I like, but could be problematic for people wanting to interact with him.

/head-to-desk

And Ela and Molly (not twin!Molly) are manipulative as all hell and Molly is a sociopath.

So, again, probably leading to more negative CR, despite Molly being charming as all hell and Ela being a lot of fun if you just keep her as an acquaintance.

There's also not a lot of room for romantic CR with a lot of my characters, which makes me feel like they have more trouble.

I know a lot of games say that they're not focused on shipping, but I find that even still, a lot of them focus on romantic CR.

sigh

I would say that Loren has room for romantic CR, but besides KJ, he's more of a one-night-stand kind of guy.

Lauren could use a rebound relationship.

Which could lead to some really interesting CR conflicts.

And of course, there would be the issue of getting CR with an OC. :/ I feel like my characters aren't always interesting enough to get CR without a canon.

Ela has a lot of issues wrt relationships, but she really needs to get the fuck over her dysfunctional marriage, which is kind of the point of her canon.

Again, though, I'm afraid she'll seem too Sue-ish because of her canon and she has a lot of flaws that might seem like I'm just trying to create a tragedy!Sue or... idk.

Get too much attention? She is pretty attention-seeking.

...right. She's also a 40-something that seeks out relationships with younger people, which is really squicky in a lot of ways.

I think if you want to make an OC in a game you should think about which one has the simplest canon

I guess that's true.

Because in a game you have to be able to explain everything in two sentences or people won't paly with you

Definitely. That makes sense.

Because that was a problem playing with yours, it seemed like every solution I came up with was met with "That's not how the canon works"

Yeah, I guess that's true. >___<

And okay that's fine you know your canon but I didn't and it just...got frustrating, like trying to play against a brick wall

Yeah, I get that. I do get caught up in my own little worlds, which I can't always sum up easily.

So your characters are great but pick something with less restrictions for multiplayer stuff and keep your complicated stuff for your books

Yeah. Loren is pretty much standard cyberpunk. Ela is pretty generic urban fantasy. twin!Molly would probably be harder to explain.

Should probably throw apoca stuff out the window, but that's a good idea in general, as I'm having a looser relationship with the canon in general.

I really need to work on it, but it's hard because my cowriter is heavily stuck on other projects and just can't brain for it.

Regular Molly is just a BtR AoK, but that might be harder to explain.

idk.

I can't figure out if Lauren would be harder to explain, even though she's pretty generic cyberpunk.

Cyborg body with her original imprint that has a virus that causes sentience in any machine she's interfaced with. I guess that's not too complicated.

Either way, I should probably wait to join a game until I figure out my workload. Although I might write an app just because that's fun and a good way to understand characters.

I'm kind of interested in Telios, I think? If that's the one I recall.

I think it's the one I'm thinking about.

Loren might be a good idea, considering he's just a human with a stupid chip in his head, and I've already written his major canon.

And if I'm lucky, it could generate more interest in the graphic novel, when it comes out.

possibly, but i wouldnt go in expecting it

I'm mostly joking. =P

most RPers are pretty busy people and its easy for one more canon to get lost in the shuffle of stuff you should watch/read/play for your CR

I'm actually not sure I'll even be able to get the Kickstarter funded, so it's not a big deal.

ah okay I couldnt tell

An emoticon could have helped. XD

because im flighty as hell when it comes to new media and i think a lot might be like me :|

Oh yeah, definitely.

It's really hard for me to get into new media as well, partially because ADHD, partially because I'm picky.

And yeah, OCs are definitely one of those that often get lost in the shuffle, even in small-ish games.

And I'd need a lot of time to do a lot of tag-ins, as that's the only real way to get CR.

But idk. I'm also worried that a lot of my characters are kind of offensive and I don't want to offend people or cause drama.

The obvious answer to that is to be willing to bend their characterization for a game, but I'm not really willing to do that.

It would be a lot easier in general with my life if I were willing to bend characterization.

you could try a fandom character

There aren't any fandoms I'm really comfortable RPing right now, unfortunately. I've thought of playing Daniel from Stargate, but I'm not sure.

the thing i liked about BTR was it had a way to make in-universe OCs so people could do OCs but the world framework was already there

Yeah, definitely.

so there isn't any of that "umm...who is that?" factor

I've done a lot of canon-review for Daniel and he's one of the characters I'm more comfortable with, but I'm still not sure.

I don't like RPing fandom characters and not doing them justice, I guess?

And Daniel might be hard to play in a jamjar because he's so connected to being able to explore and experience.

I feel like he'd get super unhappy again, like he was before the Stargate program, but worse, considering he's had a chance to experience that?

And I mean, unhappy is okay, but he might withdraw, and that makes a character really hard to play.

I'm kind of comfortable playing Dr. Lightman from Lie to Me, but that requires people to give me detailed information on how their character is feeling.

I mean, he reads emotions through microexpressions for a living, and it's really hard to get people to give that kind of information in tags, in my experience.

what i have generally done with Sherlock, if people weren't giving me stuff to do, is i would wiki them and just do stuff

/nodnod I guess that's true.

with the PM of "if im going to far let me know but this is how he rolls"

Definitely. Dr. Lightman is also a jackass, so there's that, too.

I've tossed around the idea of playing a Farscape character, but I need to finish canon first, and I just haven't had the time.

Always the time issue. :/

I've had people want to draw me into the White Collar fandom, as it's a canon I really enjoy. Playing Diana could be a lot of fun, and she's more likable.

I feel like my type (beyond OCs) is generally manipulative bastards, which can cause a lot of conflict down the road and makes them hard to get CR.

I mean, I'd love to play Neal, and he's hella charming and a lot of fun and people like him, but in a game the fact that he's a conman through and through might cause issues.

I guess the only real way to tell for sure is throw someone in a game and if it doesn't work out, it doesn't work out.

Which is okay. I mean, sometimes I feel rejected when I'm already depressed and a character isn't working out, but when I'm doing well, it's okay.

And I've been rather stable lately, in a lot of different ways.

And I guess if I go in expecting there to be conflict, it'll be less upsetting. Although on the other hand, I might set myself up to fail.

blllh. I shouldn't even be worrying about this right now because I simply don't know what my schedule/available time will be in the near future.

I know I have a habit of absorbing myself in work, which is problematic on its own, but definitely a problem if I can't make time for tags because I'm overworking myself.

I guess I could write some apps, when I have time, because I enjoy doing that, and then figure out which ones would best fit into games.

And see if I can truly understand some of the fandom characters I might be interested in playing. I... just canon review takes a lot of time.

And it involves me being able to focus enough to watch/consume media.

I would really enjoy playing one of the characters from Startide Rising, but it's such an obscure canon and it's a book canon, so I figure that won't click.

...and the characters I would want to play are dolphins. Granted, they are dolphins that don't entirely need to be in water, but still dolphins.

I'm also not entirely sure I'm up to the amount of social interaction it takes to get seriously involved in a game. I hadn't thought about that.

I've been kind of withdrawn lately, besides my requirement to be social on twitter.

Hence the being less on plurk and not checking my DW reading list or updating.

(also, no, I don't expect anyone to really read this ginormous plurk. I'm mostly talking to myself, to be honest. It helps me figure things out.)

I guess waiting to see what my workload is like and how I handle it would give me time to figure out if I can be social.

A major part of my problem right now is that I'm being more social in meatspace because we've been clubbing/partying quite a bit.

And I'll be doing less of that in the future, most likely, as there are less shows and whatnot.

I think Ayria on Saturday is our last show for a while.

IM READING IT SHUT UP

XD <3

I AM JUST POINTING OUT. IT IS A LOT OF TEXT.

also being social in meatspace is good, that will get you material gains you cant always get online

and yes play with apps

see what happens as things shift and stabilize you're coming up on a big career change so take it easy

Yeah, being social in meatspace is really helping with my social anxiety so much. I'm seeing huge benefits from it, even if it's really tiring.

aka dont do a Britt "OH I CAN DO ANOTHER GAME AS A REWARD FOR LIFE CHANGE -oshit"

#adventuresofanintrovert

\o/

Ahahahaha. Yeah. That's probably a bad idea, to just jump in without really thinking about it.

well introvert is not social anxiety (sorry thats a pet peeve of mine)

No, I'm talking about it being draining.

Not the anxiety.

but yes learning to fake it in society is important

yeah i know that feel, im an introvert too

im just fucking ninja at faking it

then i go do crazy shit for a weekend and sleep forever

Yeahhh, that's where I'm at right now.

And then I ran off to a very short business meeting and I have work to do. Redoing landing pages, woo!

But yeah. I'll figure something out wrt playing in a game again. I really miss RPing, particularly old-school BtR.

/nod

And business meetings all the time. Short day today, so I need to figure out stuff.

Although I'll be coming back to work after my appt, I think. So much to do.

Alright, I think business meetings are mostly done for the day. Now to just work.

Maybe I'll look at doing some apps when I am done with the work I'm willing to do today...

I've done so much fiction writing that I'm not entirely worried about getting more done.