get upset when you dont get what you want

get even moreso when you get what you wanted because you feel like you dont deserve it

briefly be filled with self loathing for the human race figuratively and literally because of things you feel like you dont deserve them

even though you obviously did!!! because you got it didnt you!!!!!

why are you in tears you fucking ninny

I don't know what you're referring to but call me later. Or I'll call you. Or text or something

Eventually it'll normalize and you can accept things you get/don't get with a shrug and a nod and a smile

I suspect that yeah, maybe you deserve it! (If it's a good thing)

rages

What'd you gettttt text me

hugs u cuz ur my bro

screams

wraps arms around casey and rolls into the deep

rolls w it like a boss

i think thinking of the world in terms of "deserve" is just a wrongass way to approach life, but i understand getting caught up in it

i know

shit happens and doesn't happen and "deservingness" is a moral judgement you make that puts you in a position of deciding who should get what and i think that's dumb

i know i'm being dumb about it too but the feel bads are still there

but i got really fucking choked up and flaily about a present i got like. not even a day ago.

so LETS JUST BE DUMB FOR A LITTLE BIT TOGETHER

rolls

roll w me let us roll all the dumb out

roll so hard the stupid just washes away

i feel like this is a song i dont know

it isnt im just freestylin

:***

are we in a musical

YOU HAVE TO TELL ME THESE THINGS

which one of us has tuberculosis

the song is Life and we are but the few paltry shitheads getting worked up about the tiniest of deals

dibs on the tb

handsome starving artist. i could dig it

mainly because that's me already

heeeeellllll yeah

What, but you just called ME the starving artist, Char

i did but im one too

Oh okay

Am I Toulouse

we covered this asher you are valjean

(you can be toulouse)

What, since when was I Valjean? I thought I was Cosette

stubbornly insists on my casting choices

and im javert

: / You're enabling the shippers again, Char

god i just wanT TO BE JAVERT

ash's disgusting do goodery is so fluffy it makes me want to jump into the river

Yeah but you wouldn't hound me to the ends of the earth, I'm the one that bothers you to hang out

i texted you first today does that count

asher valash didn't steal a loaf of bread. it was a wedge of cheese

Fjffh I did steal a cheese today (no I didn't it was free)

You did text me first, though. I frequently forget that texting is a thing I can do.

do you hear the people sing

singing the song of WHAT IF THEY HELD HANDS

SCREAM

God what was it Casey said before she figured out which fanfic was mine

I can't find it, oh well

it was some kind of scathing apt caricature

you were like it might be obvious....

and then i went HAH and dissed you hard

because i'm a cyberbully

Yeah it was something about gratuitous paleshipping and holding hands and I kind of looked at myself and was like oh...

you guys are cute

no

Yeah Casey's pretty cute

fffffffffffffffffffffffffffffffff

- rankly you're the cute one

You have said some amazingly anime things, don't lie

very true

I AM NOT AN ANIME

PROVE IT

ur gonna see me irl in a few days you fruit rumpus

cradles char gently

smooches ur face

I dunno, being an anime makes for pretty awesome comforting-other-people skills

also I am not an anime so I have very not-awesome-comforting-other-people skills : | so

@ char

v v WE'LL SEE WHO'S AN ANIME!!!!!

your FACE is an anime. (>_<)

I KEEP HEARING THAT FROM STRANGERS IT'S GETTING SILLY

you've given me permission to call you aniki and senpai you're an anime

mmkay

i remember when that joke started, vaguely

there was a lot of clapping each other on the shoulder and screaming

: 3