i think i've cried a little bit every night that i've been away from them

i really hate it

i know this feeling.

the family i was stuck with (the abusive mom, the overly controlling step-father, the father more my friend than a dad) stayed with me

and i love both of my fathers dearly

but having to say goodbye, again, to my cousins and uncles and aunts after not having seen them for years?

it just reminds me of how good things used to be.

before the divorces, and the depression, and mom trying to kill herself, and all of it.

I was so happy at my cousin's wedding two days ago, and now that i'm back home i'm miserable.

and my friend being a jackass to me inadvertently today didn't help.

and my girlfriend leaving on an 8th month internship in less than a week isn't helping

being an adult pretty much sucks.

it's the stupidest thing.

jellybabyoftheneutronflo...: I'll probably feel better in the morning. Or after I eat.

If you need anyone to vent to, feel free to findme.