and feeling sick and sore everytime I'm out of bed for longer than an hour. On top of this having to worry about money. They showed me my wound today and it's the biggest ugliest thing I've ever seen

it takes up the entirety of my back, one big long bloody snake. I'm not going to be comfortable wearing a 2 piece for another 4 years.

They don't even know if this is the last surgery yet, they're just hoping that there isn't anything else.

I know it sounds stupid to be upset because, well would I rather have cancer or be ugly? I just can't help but feel depressed about it. I know I shouldnt and it's selfish but I want to be beautiful.

^ THIS ^ I agree

this ^.