so.. it's been a really bad day, and I've been really shaken up, Plurk.

a close family friend had complications from heart surgery, and collapsed in the middle of rehabilitation. He woke up and needed to be restrained because he had no recollection or memory of anything.

and then today also, my family and my extended family argued about sending a cousin of mine studying in Korea to therapy.

because he's completely isolated himself from everyone and barely talks, he once burnt a table cloth by accident and didn't say /anything/, just spaced out.

so we think he may be depressed, which is something that runs in our family like craaazy.

like several family members have tried killing themselves in my family, or have done so successfully.