Ever since the break-up I've been secretly been feeling pretty lonely.

I say secretly because it isn't something I'm aware of until it gets really quiet, and then I realize I've been thinking of her in roundabout ways and how this situation reminded me of something we did together

and so forth

'cause at the end of it all, we were really good friends.

and I don't like knowing in the process of this I might have potentially lost a good friend.

and I can almost see her sighing and rolling her eyes and telling me it's not a huge deal and that I'm exaggerating and that everything is going to be fine.

But this isn't us in a relationship anymore, this is us now as exes and we're both going to be at a party together next Sunday and I honestly don't know what to expect.

I hope it goes over well. I hope we can go back to being friends at best.

I just don't like feeling so alone right now.