So everything's been shitty lately, and I'm sick of this version of me. I HATE this me.

I'm going to try and explain this to my mom, and hope that she lets me do something to change myself, i.e. bleach my hair, go on a diet, get a hair cut, just something to change how I look.

Tonight I'm going to stay up all night and alternate between doing my school work and cleaning my room.

Then, I will write a schedule of what I am, and am not, allowed to eat if I want to stay healthy.

Also going to clean out my closet and dressers, get rid of what I don't wear and what doesn't fit.

Hmm, maybe I'll just put some hair color on top of my current one, like my mom does to her hair?