Why is there so much negative energy around me lately. I've had nothing but people screaming at me and getting pissed at me.
Im trying to do things my way but it's never enough and I've been feeling pretty good lately but since this negativity... I've felt nothing but depression.
No one understands or cares where I am. Meaning people who are physically around me. I feel demotivated and extremely unloved.
Like there are maybe 2 things that are my fault but it's like 2 out of 9 things and the rest I haven't done. I'm a mess and all I want to do is stay in bed and cry. Like I'm doing right now. I just..
I don't know anymore what to do, say or think and I've always been this type of person who takes orders but says if they aren't fair or right. I have an opinion and even having that any
More seems like more of a detriment then a help. So I guess from everyone I just do what is asked of me, not to ask questions and to just shut up and do it? It feels like I'm to never express myself and I feel
Completely and utterly terrible and useless. I love smiling and having fun and laughing... But now it seems like I can't. And
Someone I love and care for, when I tell him that I need help or I feel like I want to commit suicide he just replies with that I'm overreacting and to get over it. Exactly like my parents
Which he said he'd never do to me. And so I'm stuck in bed crying my eyes out because it's hard pressed to find so
Some one to talk to who actually cares. The person I rely on emotionally the most, just doesn't care anymore.
And my parents completely ignore me for the most part, my mother only bugs me when she wants something from me other then that, no talking. My brothers are a lost cause, I talk to one of my
Brothers every once in awhile but the other brother I haven't talked to in about half a year. I have no physical friends to go and see because of where we live. And I'm just... Wanting to be able to relax and
Be happy but... I'm not sure if I'm meant to.