I mean I'd LIKE to have people to hang out with

but after just a few hours I get really worn out and I have to leave to have my alone time or otherwise I'll be in a bad mood

and I have gotten used to not really going anywhere during the week

and if I spend one of my days off hanging out with people all day, it feels like I lost a day that I normally use for resting _o_

so idk I want to have a social life but at the same time I want to stay here in my hiding hole idkkkkkk

/rolls

it feels really weird, wanting something and not wanting it at the same time

I think I'm just way too introverted but I don't think there is a way to fix that.

I think the trick is to find other people with limited tolerance for social situations.

and/or people who are understanding of your lack of tolerance.

this is probably a good idea.

because yeah I also have very limited tolerance for people which is why I am exhausted as fuck right now

and so far the solutions I have discovered mostly involve one of those two things.

or getting a few people who you can stand to be around for longer periods and hanging out with them.

certain people do tend to be exceptions :|a

this is true :|a I am not sure why this is.

there is problem some sort of logic to it but I have nooooooo idea what it is.

the trick really is finding people who will take "ehhhh I really don't have enough energy for that right now /rolls" as an acceptable excuse for not hanging out.

except one of the major reasons I am keeping boyfriend is that he appears to be an exception.

yeeeeeeeah

this is good.

this is also one of the reasons I am determined to live in a place where I can see you IRL on a regular basis, because that was also my experience when we hung out in real life 8|

yes 8|

/paws at

only major problems with that at this point are a) school and I want my cat to come with meeeee

...that was not supposed to be an emote, that was not even capitalized

yeah plurk does that.

it is dumb.

it bad that I'm more concerned about where my cat would live than what I would do about school.

given your past experiences with school, not really.

"BUT WHERE WILL KITTY CAT LIVE" is genuinely my largest concern about getting out of my parents' house at this point.

because she'll be inconsolable if she stays at home with parents but she'll also be a sad kitty if I take her with and she only has me >:

>:

yeah that is a problem.