I acted like a coward

I took the easy route without even trying

I'm headed

Over to her place right now and asking her out once and for all

Oops she's on the same train as me so have to hide???

I was hoping to ask her out at her house haha

AGJHFKLEG

Well

That was a bust

So now I'm just sitting on a bench in sunset park

Feeling like an idiot and crying

Aw man D:

Cool yeah real mature and level headed

Aw fuck it I know what everyone is gunna say to me anyway

I don't wanna hear that shit right now. Just swallow my pride and move on

At least we're still friends etc etc etc

Don't get yourself down there are other fish in the sea

I'll be okay it'll happen when it happens

Uuuuuuugh I'm

Just really

Bummed. That's all. I'll be okay

at least you had the most shounen moment of your life

I wish I didnt

I don't to even go back

* want

go back to your apartment?? why not?

i guess sometimes you just want to be alone and to deal with being upset. maybe go for a walk or something

go grab some of your fave food and chill for a bit or take a walk or something if you don't want to talk about all that stuff right now

man listen. you also are allowed to just spend some time being bummed

the only thing i wanted

to get piss drunk

or get fucking blazed out of my mind

and not in a celebratory way but in a self destruction kind of way

like how i used to be back in the day

BUT I"M TRYING TO BE A FUCKING ADULT ABOUT THIS SHIT

so i managed to stay out of any bars and drug dens

So that's pretty sweet

that is actually a good idea

as much as i am all for getting drunk or high when annoyed or upset, it's not good to lean on those things

not saying you are ~in danger of doing so~ or anything, just that sometimes the self destructive root isn't the best

exactly shit happens it sucks party get drunk with friends

but this is just one of those times where drinking alone would noooootttttt be a good thing

no matter how bad i want it

we shall party 2gether