i have to beat it somehow

Maybe you need a partner to sell it for you.

possibly po.

still it rankles at me. if man is a perfectible creature, then if you put him in the water, he should be able to learn how to swim

or if you put him in a high place, he should be able to make a glider out of bamboo

if i can't do this, i'm not a man

sometimes i have to fight this thinking

because i do see the limits of my powers. this might be one of them

thanks for the advice po

You're welcome. I just thought that martial arts masters don't personally ask their students for tuition so they can focus on the arts.

They have an assistant to do the business side of it for them.

And there is no shame in admitting that there are certain things you won't be good at and in asking for help.

But ask help from people who are discreet.