and out of state festivals for 6 or so years while I had a bootleg team with less than 10 players for two years without lessons or

traveling tournaments. And then they force me to come watch and not say anything about how my sister's team plays cuz they're still young.

lul I guess my mom forgot I was the same age as my sister when I started volleyball. Only difference is I wanted it more.

And here I am sulking about it again. But I need to let it out somewhere before I blow up in front of all these people at my parents.

Pissed that my sister gets what I deserved.

No point in getting mad at my parents though. What's done is done. I hope there will be some way to erase regrets later on.

aw