I don't even have a real reason

my imagination is just getting ahead of me

hugs

cuddles thank you

I'll be worse if what I think is going to happen actually does happen

that's when I'll be bawling.

I am the worse at thinking bad thoughts so I understand and I am here if you want to talk

I really jsut need to tell someone right now. Normally I tel my tumblr friend Moira but she's not online right now when I really need her

There's this girl that I really like and one day I finally got up the courage to tell her. She told me she loved me back and for a little

everything was fucking perfect. We would send each other cute messages, tell each other we were beautiful, all that shit

of course we never confirmed if we were dating or anything and that always worried me because I never knew what we were

then we stopped talking about it and I began to freak out even more. Recently, she asked me if I liked someone else

and I said no because I really didn't, I still completely adored her

and she said okay. She said that she loved me too but she was really confused right now

that was the first time she had told me that she loved me in like a month

finally today we were talking and she told me that she was upset and confused so of course I asked her what was wrong

and she refused to tell me because she didn't want me to get angry or upset or cry so she said she'd tell me the next time we had a

sleepover or something. Of course I don't see how that's any better than telling me online but that's not the point

The point is that she's confused, she said part of what she was confused about was because of me, and she refuses to tell me

because she thinks it will upset me. She knows how much I love her and now I'm freaking out

I just don't want to talk to her again because at least nothing's been confirmed yet. If I don't talk to her maybe I can convince

myself that everything is okay

cuddles and gently rubs small circles on your back I have been there its a hard place to be.

It was all so perfect for a little bit and I actually fucking thought that everything would be perfect

that's the worst part, I actually thought that things would be amazing

fuck, I'm actually crying now

I am sorry bb wish I could change things because I have felt that pain and I know how it hurts.

Thanks honey. Seriously, I don't know where I would be without my internet friends. I would be a complete mess

I'm just going to find sad songs and try and stop crying

I am watching TVD