oh my god all of them i am so insecure all the time

i'm trying not to be

but i feel like i'm still learning how to RP period so i always feel like i'm doing everything wrong~

but for serious—

i feel like i haven't really developed a voice as a writer

and sometimes i find myself mimicking whoever i'm writing with, unconsciously, and then i get super embarrassed like i'm not my own person

like, i'll pick up phrases or words that people have used recently in tags and start using them when i wouldn't have otherwise

let's see... characterization, of course

i apped to SP like, oh god their apps are open and i really want to play and if i don't do it now it won't happen who should i play

MOMO. i love my momo. but i didn't canon review or prep or anything, just apped out of my head

and so now i'm like oh god do i even remember things right

on that same note, i feel like sometimes i make things up or assume things and then go wikipedia them and I'm just... wrong.

and i feel like a dumbass. especially with regards to cultural things, or activities that my characters would know how to do but i don't

also activity—sometimes i'm really excited and have free time and just want to play, and then i have three days of work and can't respond to

anything

and i'm getting more okay with that, because people in SP have been awesome about backtagging

I also have donehealing 's problem, where i worry about being too active, or rather, tagging too many people at once

or trying to do too many things

especially since it's my first game and not a meme and i can't just do all the things and have it not affect my character ICly

also, not really an insecurity, but more of a goal, i would like to get more seriously into Hinamori's head

i feel like i really love playing her for laughs and for angst and for FEELS

but i'd like to explore her more, and that's something i have to do on my own time, outside of RP

but i would like to flesh her out and feel like she stands on her own as a character, and make choices about her that are

consistent with canon, but not bare-bones only-whats-seen-in-canon