yeah

...

yeah

so i ve got a pretty good idea wtf is going on but why dont you enlighten me anyway

i cant support the stuff she does

i thought it was better if she was saying it was

i tried to trust her without bias

didnt work

so

whatever

uhh?

i broke the pailmating, dude

oh god

pale

PALE

...

okay be glad i know when to cut the bullshit cuz i wont make fun of that right now

but

stashing that for later

it would be a crime not to like i would be brought to jail for the crime of abandoned burn

uh-huh

anyway

whats brought this on

stuff that should be obvious: that

scroll to the top

read what i said again

then go back to the bottom and type it

pff.

idk

we're supposed to feel sorry for vriska because shes trying to be nice and it makes people mean

you know what for the first time ever i don't

she cares less about being nice and more about people feeling bad for her

yeah that's mean but it's true

she hurt a bunch of people then wants people to be nice to her, so... /shrug/

if i palemate it means i can approve it and i cant make her feel good about it i dont want to

i dont even know i want to talk to her again

i dont really know what to say here

like

i had a pretty good feeling this was gonna happen eventually but that dont make me feel any less shitty for you

i guess i feel kinda shitty for her too but im working on that because

yeah

well she's fucked you over hasn't she?

i cant stand for that and i didnt see it was happening till that other dave said it so i feel crappy for that

thats what erased it

erased what

giving a shit

nobodys gonna believe im being honest but i am i dont anymore

ive said that before other people have too

i dont think we really stop its just not able to do things w/it cuz yeah

no

thats wrong

i absolutely utterly completely simply don't give a shit

look, i dont agree with a lot she's done

but hurting my friends and then expecting that makes her sympathetic uhhh

maybe she'll learn the other way but i don't think so, it's unfair to expect it she's a troll

i know someone would cite kanaya or karkat handling things ok but its in their personalities anyway

hurting yous worse, the most worst

it's, um, pretty obvious you're sick because of so much stress and who's causing that

i don't really know what being sick from stress means but that's gotta be the cause...

who's causing it well one person

i'm not enabling it

i'm not forgiving it

i kinda dont forgive myself for taking so long to get here

but i guess i can work on that?

you better not be blaming yourself because no

well i am!

don't forgive me for it, i don't deserve that any more than she does...

what the hell dude

who cares so you liked someone you shouldnt well look at me i did that too

if we re gonna toss blame around like its some sort of super bounce ball then throw it at me too

and whatever because dude ok let me count the ways youve not fucked up my life because yeah youve never done that

A> watching out for me actually being a good friend

B> auspicing like hell so me and kk would make it through the tough spots that were the beginning and really being way responsible for

anything happening at all other than making out i mean come on

C> theres lots of other stuff but those most immediately apply

so lets look at that

no, i dont want to

too fucking bad bro

i dont give any fucking shit what vriska did do didnt do thats over any issues were my mistakes her mistakes not yours

im done with it so be glad for that

i could spend my energy letting her fuck me up or i could spend it with people who actually make me feel good about myself

ive got that but ive especially got it with you so you know what youve always been a balancer you are great

if you dont wanna look at A well then look at B cuz even when all chips are down that dont go away he literally makes my life worth living

so you know what since youre responsible for that then how could i ever be mad at you for anything

i love you dude i know its not in the way you want but i do do it heres a difference

i didnt vriska the way she wanted either so who did what she tried to ruin my life you tried to make it better

pretty big damn different okay

ok um i have absolutely no idea what youre talking about

yes you do

no...

yes

ugh no denial for birthday?

no

this is lets fix some shit time that superscedes any birthday jollies

ok so your birthday gift is closure, i guess

best im capable of

but thats not something we need to talk about right now

but i dont want you mad at yourself

dont do it

this isnt everyones her victim and you shoulda known to stop it

all these feelings you got could have been avoided

youre her victim too

the more you feel crappy about yourself the more shes won

know the good things youve done

not just for me for everyone

guess how i know cuz i was doing this too

i was wrong wasnt i

so how are you not