it's difficult to keep calm when you see a 'friend' putting you down without a reason to make someone else feel better?

If it were the first time, or if something had *actually* happened, then I would still be irked but I'd get over it

but when fucking nothing happens, I don't fight with anyone, I don't tell anything weird to anyone and I see ONCE AGAIN

that this person feels the need to chalk everything down to 'well she never reaches out to others so it's her fault' sorry but I can't stay

calm

it's true, I'm very introverted, I don't feel at ease talking about my *feelings*, sometimes I make others worry, etc, etc--I'm aware I'm

not a very pleasant person but

what the fuck

it's not very nice to basically say 'if she's upset it's just her own fault don't think about it'

who *are* you? can you read my mind? did I do something to you to deserve this? did I ever tell you something like that when YOU were upset

or had a problem and you talked to me?!

I don't want people to tell me I'm right and pat my back but um even if you ummm disagree??? on what I have no idea since I didn't even

fight with anyone jdskfldjflk

well can't you at least be a bit respectful of my own feelings?

maybe I'm just being too sensitive again about something nobody would give a damn about? if that's the case sorry but at least I don't ever

remember dismissing anyone's feelings like that, especially not when there was no reason to even comment on them

if people really feel the need to talk about me that much, they can do it WHILE I'M THERE

and I don't know how many times I've already said this, but!!!!

sorry to disappoint, I'm not depressed

I'm upset, I'm disappointed, I'm angry, and I'm not a nice human being in general but I have no intention of getting depressed over

something like this

I don't want to be sad because of something like this, I'd rather be angry and react somehow

I hate that I even felt the need to make this plurk, because there was no problem at all on my part in the first place

but sometimes I just get tired of ignoring things I don't like

I guess I still have the need to get upset, even if there's no reason for it except me being 'like that', right? I hope I do

*the right to get upset

now I'll probably go do something productive and hopefully I'll calm down

If you're angry with her, I think it would be good to talk it out with her instead of just posting it here

As for the depressed thing... I'm sorry? When I see plurks like "useless" or how you're completely bored and frustrated

I assume you are feeling depressed

when I say things like that, I'm generally feeling depressed too, so... Sorry that I'm misinterpreting things.

in fact I will talk to her, I just needed to let it out somehow

Okay, that makes sense

I'm sorry that I said things to upset you

no no, you didn't, I wasn't upset because of you

it's just that

I guess I don't really want others see me in a certain way but, I wasn't angry because of that

I'm not angry with you

really

I understand

thank you