dysphoria is way up high right now and just

fuck everything is setting me off

i'm on my /period/ a man should not have a /period/ i hate this i fuck

and i'm scared to go to school because i want to be out at school but i feel like nobody will respect it and

it's gonna hurt i know it

and i'm scared to talk to mom about ordering my compression vest because - though i came out to her with no issues

i know she'll be like "oh adrienne are you sure? maybe you should wait"

and it'll take everything to not fucking scream at her about how every moment i'm a girl it /hurts/

media.tumblr.com/tumblr_... and chauncey doing this on top of it all

i want to pull off my tits and just claw at my pelvis until it's nothing but a ken doll but

even then, i'd still be a girl, wouldn't I?

I know this is a rant post but I feel like saying a couple things if I may. I'm not trying to anger you but if I do I'm sorry

1. Chauncey is an asstard

no speak away

and yes he is

2. This whole f to m thing is gonna take time for people to understand and get used to. Some are gonna make fun of you and some will shun

you but I suppose thats the consequence, just remember you have friends who love you

3. About your mom, I'm sure any parent would question this choice especially since you're still a teenager so be cautious and understanding

of what your mom's thinking. Overall she's really cool and I'm sure she'll support you no matter what

4. About school: you totally shouldn't leave cuz we love you but also because then your future will be tough

(this is what might anger but....)

I remember hearing from Alena that Lexxi wanted to be a housewife so you've got to be the breadwinner right? and I feel if you drop out

that's gonna make times tough for the both of you

But, again, whatever your decision, I and Alena, and Jordan and everyone else are here to support you through school

2. yes, i know, i'm just. worried and it bugs me, i guess.

and through life, no matter what happens to you

3. i know, i was just hoping a quicker reaction? because she keeps acting like "we need to think about this" no we don't, i have, you have

to

and 4. KLJDFKLJGDF I'M NOT DROPPING OUT

just nervous xD

ok i thought thats what you meant when you said you wanted to leave school or whatever....just checkin

*too lazy to scroll up*

but, otherwise - thank you for all the support fhgdfkjdf

here for ya bro

Bro, no need to worry. You got this. It's gonna be hard, but you knew that coming in. The important thing is that you're strong enough to be

true to who you are, even when fuckheads like Chauncey make dumb comments like that.

It's kinda a hard concept for people to grasp, that sex and gender are two different things. But with patience and a good explanation, most

people can come to see the difference.

And on the subject of your mom, like you said, she needs time to think and process what's going on. I know it must be frustrating but just

give her time and maybe talk to her a little bit more about it. (I dunno how much you talked about it or how in-depth you went about how

serious you are about this, so this may be irrelevant xD) Once she sees how much this means to you, I know that she will support her son.

i do need to talk to mom more but...

dkjhdf thank you alena that was, so sweet i just kjdghdf

You're welcome. And like Allie said, we're here for you, whatever you do.

Things will turn out just fine, I'm sure, and we'll make sure those fascists who don't accept you leave you alone. And also don't

worry about your female physical attributes, we all see you as male. And with time all people who know you will too

jhgkjf i couldn't thank any of you enough <33