[AUCont.] It had been a long time since he had a dream. Kiku woke with a sharp gasp and he sat up in his bed, breathing heavily.
Glancing around his cell, he found no one and he released a sigh of relief, raking his fingers through his hair. The dream didn't make much
sense to him - a whole kaleidoscopic mess of blurred colours and shapes, and the occasional unfamiliar face popping here and there. And
sakura. He laughed softly to himself. Was his time coming too soon..? He reached over and picked up Grimm shakily, hoping some reading would
calm him down a little. When mealtimes occurred during the day, he didn't touch any of his food. He just couldn't eat. Nothing seemed to
stave off the sense of dread he was feeling then.
had been promoted to another place, much to his chagrin and he was unable to contact the one person he cared about. It was only after a
month that he could write a letter... Even though he was unsure if it was ever reaching the other. Kiku had to face his successor, who was
not as caring as he was, but he didn't know about that. He never finished the letter though because he got ambushed and ended up in a
hospital. His brother found his letter and handed it over when all the captives were freed. It expressed Ludwig's regret that he was unable
to admit his feelings.
(( and I am sorry, but this is what I imagine would happen... and I even downtoned it. orz ))
(( ;w; It's fine <3 I'm just wondering with the fact that if Kiku, where will he go? Deported back to Japan? ))
He didn't know how long time had passed but he had learned to not look longingly towards the door, hoping to see that familiar face again.
Another officer was placed in charge of him and since then, Kiku was convinced that Ludwig was in trouble and he was being punished for it.
He felt guilty and as such, he refused to speak, much to the new officer's annoyance and the man had resorted to violence to force him to
talk. Unlike Ludwig, this man had no idea how ridiculously stubborn Kiku could be and after thoroughly beating him, the man walked off in a
huff when Kiku simply glared at him, seemingly unruffled. It became cyclical, these hard interrogations and due to his stubborness, Kiku was
back to being chained up. But Kiku resolutely thought to himself that this was *nothing* compared to what Ludwig must be going through. So
he grit his teeth and went along with it. Until he was suddenly freed. At a loss, Kiku was suprised that a letter had been handed to him by
an unfamiliar man who spoke broken Japanese. He accepted it and read it. And at that moment, everything fell apart.
(( I dunno, maybe he would go an look for him in the hospital? ))
(( Ah alright. That should be good. By the way, why were the POWs released? The fighting is over is it? /just making sure ))
(( yes, the fightng is over and everything is resolved. Sorry for the slow anseers, i'm in the city atm. ))
stares at the pristine white roof of the room he is in. He had had a few visitors already, but they still hadn't managed to quench the feel
of having lost something vital to him. He wondered if his letter had been burnt in that attack that had almost killed him and wondered if
he'd prefer that over somebody finding it and exposing his feelings to the world... Ah, it would have been better if he died then.
(( no problem! please take your time! ;o; ))
It was uncharacteristic of him to be so demanding and forceful but Kiku had acted without even realising it as he forced the man who had
given him the letter to him where Ludwig was. It had been too long, far too long. Kiku couldn't read the text properly, seeing how crumpled
it was but that didn't matter. What mattered was Ludwig was out there and safe. The man looked taken aback and he had refused but after Kiku
demanded heatedly and gravely, it was only then did he agreed to take him to him. But where he led him surprised Kiku greatly because of all
places, he had not expected to be led to a hospital.
His conditon was stable... But he had lost a leg, bbecause a wound had gotten infected and it was either the leg or his life... A decision
that he could make quite easily. Sometimes though it felt like he could still feel his toe wiggling... Even if it wasn't there anymore.
"You've got a visitor," the nurse said when he had tried to move his non-existant foot. He blinked and asked, "Is it my brother?"
"yeah, it's me," the visitor said. "but I'm only the guide. And I don't have much time either."
The man steps through into the ward, speaking German it seems but Kiku wasn't really interested in that. What he was really paying much
attention to is the voice which spoke after that - that rich, deep comforting quality which he had been longing for in his dreams. He stops,
frozen behind door, his heart pounding against his chest as he feared what sort of sight he would be presented with once he enters. His
guide popped his head out and he signaled him to come in. After taking a deep breath, Kiku braced himself and finally stepped through.
tilts his head a little to see who had accompanied his brother just to see the man he had least expected peak his head in. "Kiku!" he
exclaimed, suddenly more excited than before. "What are you doing here?"
on the other hand looked terribly distraught. Ludwig was in a bed, looking a little ashen, his blue eyes tired but there was excitement in
them. He wets his lips as he took a few more wobbly steps closer to the bed. "Ruuduwi..I..I've been set free. The fighting..it's over."
raises his hand for the other's. "I know. I've been told I've been in the last fight fought."
"Ah, if you don't need me, I'll be leaving now," Ludwig's brother said, already retreating.
simply gives a short bow of thanks to the man as he leaves, closing the door behind him before he turns back to Ludwig, standing awkwardly
near the bed. He bites his lip as he tries his best to hold back the swell of emotion that was rising up within him.
"How are you... Are you alright?" he asked, lowering his hand again as the other seemed to be reluctant to take it.
His bottom lip quivered. "You..you didn't..you just..why?" his voice cracked towards the end, making him swallow thickly.
feels his rather cheerful expression fall, the joy over the other being there being washed away by the guilt of not keeping my promise.
"There was no time," he mumbled, folding his fingers on his stomach. "I wanted to write you a letter, explaining myself... I had no time to
send it."
"I thought you were.." Kiku's vision became blurry, his eyes stinging as he hiccuped. "All this time, I really thought you were-!"
raises his hand to brush away the tears that threatened to roll down the other's cheeks. "I'm alive. Not in one piece, but alive."
Not in one piece..? Kiku flinched at the gentle touch and he swallowed back his sobs, his hands shakily reaching up to hold Ludwig's hand.
He closed his eyes and clung onto the familiar warmth. He wanted to ask what Ludwig meant by his words but he dared not to.
"Are you alright? How have they been to you?" he asked, knowing that he probably had a hard time, too. He squeezed the other's hand back,
reassuring him of his presence.
simply shook his head. He was unable to speak due to how constricted his throat had felt then. He couldn't tell Ludwig how agonising it had
been with the new officer. He was a prisoner after all. Torture was inevitable.
feels his face fall. "Sit down, please, will you?" he asked, patting the side of his bed.
opens his eyes and he looks at the spot Ludwig had patted on his bed, hesitating. "Is..is it really alright..?" he asked thickly.
nods happily. "Yes, please," he says, tugging gently.
complies and he seats himself, a little shyly, next to Ludwig. He feels his cheeks warm as he realises this is the first time they are so
close to each other in a long time. He stares at their hands, squeezing it.
"I have lost a leg," he says. "And a few other things, like the skin on my fingers and... well. This," he said and pointed to the scar on
the side of his face, where he was burnt.
forces himself to look and it took almost all of his willpower to not throw aside his sense of self-discipline and just sob like a child.
"How..? What happened?" he asked quietly.
"A bomb hit the camp close to where I was, everything caught fire. My... right side was so badly burnt and my leg got infected, so they had
to take it off," he explained calmly, feeling how the hold on his hand tightened.
"Oh god..I'm sorry..Ruuduwiggu-san..I truly am.." he whispered as he pressed his forehead against the man's shoulder. "Please forgive me.."
snorts softly. "It's not your fault, don't worry about it," he said, hugging the other loosely as Kiku started crying against his shoulder.
He knows it wasn't his fault but he couldn't help feel guilty for this happening. He squeezes Ludwig's hand tightly and allows himself to be
held close, a string of inaudible apologies tumbling past his lips.
hushes the other, not wanting to hear his apologies and waits patiently until he has stopped crying, all the while holding him close to his
chest, even when he was already soaked with tears.
"Sorry.." he apologises one last time after he's calmed down, sniffling as he pats the front of Ludwig's hospital gown which was now wet.
"It's okay... do you feel better now?" he asked, shifting a little so that he was more upright.
"I've made a mess..please excuse me for acting out of line, Ruuduwiggu-san.." he mumbled before he nods slowly. "I can't say I'm better but
I think I can control myself now.."
shakes his head. "Don't worry about it, I don't mind about a small wet patch," he smiled. "It made me furious when I first found out, but I
preferred that they took off the leg, because otherwise it would have been my death."
looks at the slight dip in the duvet, indicating where the stump of Ludwig's amputated leg was. "How long..has it been?"
"A month? A bit longer? I don't know... I've been trying to move my leg, even though it's not there anymore," he explained with a sheepish
'Shortly after he stopped appe-no, after he had been transferred..' Kiku deduced. He brushed his thumb across the back of the man's hand.
smile.* ))
smiles sheepishly. "I feel a bit stupid for doing this..."
smiles wryly. "No, I think it's reasonable. Although I am amazed with how calm you are. I would probably still be upset if I was in your
position, Ruuduwiggu-san.."
shrugs it off. "I treasure my life... If it means giving a leg, I don't mind. That way...that way I could meet you again," he adds silently.
catches the hushed words and he blushes lightly. "Hm. It's not the end of the world after all..how long will you be staying here?"
shrugs softly. "Until they decide that my wounds have healed enough... Then they will send me to relearn walking, too... It shouldn't be too
long," he explained.
"Relearn..?" Kiku turns to look at the leg, a little bewildered. "How..?"
"I need a pair of crutches, I will need to re-coordinate my muscles, but it will work fine," he gives back, patting the stump.
watches the leg warily as he thinks the words over befire nodding slowly. "Is there anything I can do to help, Ruuduwiggu-san?" he asked
"You can... stay by my side," he mumbled. "If you've got time, that is."
earnestly, thinking this way something he must do as a payback for the man's kindness.
(( sabldsl. sorry. ))
(( sorry for the delay in replies. on train atm ))
(( no problem, but I thought you had ended, so I wrote something quick. ^^;; ))
(( stupid connections ;x; sorry i haven't been active as of late, been busy ;n; ))
(( I know, since you've been moving around, it's okay. You're excused. ))
(( ;w; ))
blinks, a little taken aback by such a request but he smiles widely at this. "Of course."
smiles almost shyly. "Maybe... we can stay together longer than I thought..."
nods at this, the smile unwavering on his lips. "Perhaps..if you do not mind it, perhaps..I can stay by your side for a long time..?"
"You know I would like that... and since my career in the military is about over..." He trails off, leaving it to him to finish his thought.
feels a pang of guilt at this and he just had to stop the automatic response of 'I'm sorry' from leaving his mouth. Instead he decides to
hum in thought. "I don't think I can go back to Nippon but I wonder if it's really alright for me to stay here, in your country that is.."
"You can apply as a refugee, my word still has enough weight to get it approved," he suggests. "We can work on improving our country's
relations."
tilts his head slightly. "*Re-fu-ji*..?"
"Um... fugtive of war... somebody who cannot return to their own country," he tried to explain.
"Ah..*boumeisha*," he translates. "Yes..that would be me wouldn't it.." He frowns at this, brows pinched in worry. "I will have to accept
this fact from now on.." he mumbled to himself as he tried to will away the fact that this word tugged on his heartstrings.
raises his hand to cup the other's cheek. "I'm sure you will be able to return... soon," he tries to cheer the other up.
forces a smile. "Un. Perhaps..but for now, please excuse my audaciousness but I want to stay with you, Ruuduwiggu-san. Please allow me to
support you," he declares firmly.
"Of course," he sighs, hand dropping back to his side as he closes his eyes. "I would love that."
"*Yokatta*," he says with a sigh and when he notices Ludwig closing his eyes, he panics a little. "Ruuduwiggu-san? Are you alright? Do you
want to rest?"
"A little rest would be good... I have gotten weak from lying around here, doing nothing all day," he mumbled and trailed off mid-sentence
as he fell asleep.
watches him for a moment and he sighs through a smile as he reaches over to sweep aside the stray flyaway hairs from Ludwig's forehead. He
touches the man's face, the tips of his fingers gingerly tracing the scar. "It must have been hell..I promise I will look after you,
Ruuduwiggu-san.." he whispers before he gets off the bed and moves to the seat beside the bed, settling on to it as he watches the gentle
rise and fall of his chest, and it wasn't long until Kiku too found himself drifting off to sleep.
gets woken up when the nurse comes to change his bandages, shifting slightly to assist her the best he can. After that it's time for dinner,
so he sits up straight again and gets out his journal.
had decided to a walk shortly before Ludeig stirred awake and he wasn't particularly sure if he felt glad for the fresh air or not. He was
very well aware of the looks that were cast his way however, some of mild curiosity but most out of scorn and contempt. He tried to ignore
them as his lowered his gaze and quickly made his way back to Ludwig's ward, his shoulders hunched in discomfort. The moment he slipped into
the room and shut the door a little too hard than he had intended to, he heaved out a heavy sigh and turned to Ludwig with a tired smile.
"Tough time outside?" he asked, putting his fork down. The other looked like he had gone through his own personal little hell.
"Ah...well, that is.." he trails off with a small shrug. "H-How is your leg, Ruuduwiggu-san?"
"It's okay, it seems like the wounds are closing well," he explains. "Do you want some of my cake? You must be hungry."
eyes the tray in Ludwig's lap but he shakes his head, out of stubborn politeness, even though he hadn't eaten since he was released. "Please
don't worry about it, I'm alright."
snorts softly. "I can see that clearly you are not, so please, have it. It's too sweet for my anyway," he insists, seeing how hollow the
the other's cheeks have become. "Please, also tell me about... My successor."
was about to protest but he had forgotten how fantastically stubborn the German could be and he stared at the plate which was now cradled
in his hands. As if on cue, his stomach growled and he blushed lightly in embarrassment as he gave the other a nod of thanks. Settling down
on a nearby chair, he stiffens at the question he was suddenly presented with. "...*sakusesa*..?"
"The one who replaced me... I don't think he was as... well, nice as I was," he explained. "I hope he wasn't too bad..."
keeps his gaze on the cake, his eyes hardening. "He was..not a very patient man."
sighs. "I... feared that," he mumbled, sounding regretful.
shifts a little in his seat upon noticing how uncomfortable the atmosphere has become. He gives a nod of affirmation but he keeps his mouth
shut, unsure if he should disclose this delicate matter so much.
"Please... Tell me about it," he mumbles, having learned a thing or two from the doctor who had talked to him after he had been awake again.
His fingers traced across the rim of the plate. "He was a hotheaded one..not easily pleased..if he doesn't get what he wants, he will beat."
nods slowly, knowing way too many of his men were like that, irritated when they didn't get results as quick as they wanted.
nods slowly, knowing way too many of his men were like that, irritated when they didn't get results as quick as they wanted.
Seeing how Ludwig had not made a verbal response, he paused, hesitant on whether he should go on. He didn't want to look weak in Ludwig's
eyes after all. It was not befitting of a man of his rank after all.
[Ve...In many way...Is fangirling so much in you two post >w< A lurker who can not keep the thumb up hidden anymore >W<]
(( huggles feli! <3 /lack of consistent internet is torture ;w; ))
[It's alright, I'm considering calling it a night and sleep now... since internet is not being a good boy... pet pet~]
(( ;w; ..i'm waiting for your reply Ruuduwiggu-san..sorry if you didn't notice it.. QwQ ))
(( Plurk's been an ass for me this time. *sob* ))
raises his head, looking at the other. "Please continue," he said calmly. Still, there was a border on what was acceptable and what could be
fined.
averts his eyes from meeting Ludwig's gaze. "Because I am stubborn, the whole ordeal had become almost like a routine. He would come in,
shout in German and I would, as usual, not respond to him. And then he would beat me. If not him, it would be his subordinates. And they.."
narrows his eyes. He would involve his subordinates? Considering that, he could be glad that he was still alive. "...I see," he mumbles,
staring at his folded hands in his lap.
nods at this before he quickly mumbles out the fact that that was what he could remember. He didn't want to talk about this anymore. It was
all in the past now. It wasn't like it could make a difference after all. The war was over now.
waves him over. "Come here," he murmurs, inviting the other to lie by his side.
hesitates for a moment before he awkwardly makes his over to Ludwig's bed. Shuffling across the bed, he sidles up against the German's side.
wraps his arm around the other and pulls him a little closer onto his chest.
stiffens a little at the sudden intimacy between them but he lets it be, sinking into Ludwig's embrace with a small sigh.
closes his eyes as well. "It's over now," he mumbled and petted his hair.
His throat tightens at this, a surge of emotion rising within him but he pushes it down, nodding a little before he rubs his forehead
against Ludwig's, seeking warmth from the other. "*Hai*."
nods, raising his other arm despite it being a little difficult, to hug him tight. He nuzzles back, glad that he has enough privacy here.
makes a small noise and he presses himself closer as he buries his nose into Ludwig's shirt, picking up his familiar scent. slowly he
reaches up and his fingers curl into the material of the man's shirt, clinging onto it in unspoken need. "Ruuduwiggu-san.."
holds him a little closer, instinctively knowing that a hug like this can manage more than anything either of them could have said. They...
weren't the types to talk. Thus, he pressed a quick kiss to his forehead.
Usually, Kiku would fluster at the sudden kiss which had been planted against his head but for now, Kiku welcomed it more than anything, and
unable to help himself, he tilts his head up and gives an awkward peck on Ludwig's jaw.
smiles a little, awkwardly, but presses a kiss onto the other's nose as an answer before shifting them both a bit until his lips captured
Kiku's thin ones.
His fingers tightened around the man's shirt and he leans up into the kiss, his heart quickening at the intimate touch. His eyes slipped
closed and he leans against Ludwig, his body unconsciously seeking out his warmth.
pulls the other almost on top of himself with a small sound, deepening the kiss gradually.
groans a little and he parts his lips slowly to welcome Ludwig's tongue as he shifts a little to make himself a little comfortable.
puts his hand on the back of his head, holding him in place as he kisses him hungrily.
allows Ludwig's tongue to explore his mouth, the familiar warmth was erupting within his chest. It felt really good. Kiku tugs Ludwig's
shirt as he shyly slides his tongue across the other's tongue.
rubs Kiku's back, soothingly but also wantonly. He had missed his presence and it only started to show now they were this close.
His moan is swallowed in their kiss as Kiku feels the tension in his body slowly disappear. Now that he realised it, this was the first time
Ludwig was kissing him without the intoxication of alcohol. Another moan is won and Kiku tugs the other's shirt once more. *So honest*.
breaks the kiss, blushing deeply this time. He had memories of their last kiss, but this was way better than he remembered. "S-sorry...I got
carried away."
When Ludwig starts to pull away, in his headiness, Kiku tightens his clutch on the shirt and his brows pinched together in confusion. He
stares wordlessly at the other, reluctant to let him go. Not after all this time.
pats his back reassuringly with an awkward smile. "I'm not going anywhere," he mumbles before he adds with a snort. "I can't."
frowns a little as a pang of guilt hits him. Slowly he loosens his clasp, dropping his gaze to where his fingers were. "Sorry," he whispers
as he shifts a little, cringing when his leg bumps against Ludwig's stump. "Sorry." He makes a move to withdraw, thinking he has been too
demanding.
"No, stay. I don't want you to move away either," he mumbles, pulling him closer by his waist. "I haven't... I was pretty lonely..."
"What about your leg? Does it not hurt?" he asks anxiously as Ludwig keeps him in place. "I do not want to cause you anymore pain."
chuckles softly. "No, it doesn't hurt. If it does, it's more of a phantom pain...I get enough painkillers, too. Just in case," he explained.
"*Fantomu*.." Kiku gradually settles against Ludwig, though he takes care to not bump against the stump.
"Um... that means something that is not there, but it feels like it's still there," he explains again.
again=paitently
nods at this, even though he wasn't at all instrested in its meaning then. He was distracted by the fact that it was only then did he
realise just how much his body seemed to long for some form of contact with Ludwig's skin then. He nudges his nose against the German's.
smiles softly, eyes closing again. "I think... I'm going to take a small nap... Don't you dare move though.."
"..Is it really alright? Visitng hours are over are they not?" he murmurs. But if he does leave, where will he go..?
"They are, but I still got a few special rights thanks to my rank," he smirks drowsily, half-asleep already.
is amazed with this and he fidgets a little, out of discomfort and gratefulness. He couldn't voice out his sentiments then, instead he lies
on his side and decides to watch Ludwig as he drifts off to sleep, a small smile on his face.
wakes up when the nurse comes to change his bandages and mentions for Kiku to move.
stirs awake and he looks around, a little disorientated before he notices Ludwig looking down at him and the nurse who was shuffling around
with a packet of new bandages. Awkwardly, he shuffles of the bed and settles on the chair, rubbing the sleep from his eyes.
off*
has been through the procedure so often that he doesn't look at it anymore. The nurse unwraps his stump, revealing that there is still a
bit ooze on it. The stitches look quite angry and big, but it's not so bad anymore.
cringes at the sight and he turns his face away, out of politeness.
"It looks good, Herr Schmidt. Do you still feel any pain?" Which Ludwig denies. "The doctor said that your recovery has gone well and he
will have good news for you tomorrow. But don't tell him I said that," she winked as she finished re-wrapping his stump.
kept still, his shoulders hunched together as he tried to make himself invisible. Apart from Ludwig, Kiku was still not comfortable around
other people.
After she was done with her work, the nurse turned to Kiku, after sending Ludwig a questioning look. "Ah, are you hungry? There's still a
little from the dinner left, and you look like you haven't eaten in a long time," she smiled, determined to treat everyone equally.
looks at her a little helplessly before he turns to Ludwig, uncertain with what he should respond back seeing how quickly she spoke.
just nods at the Asian, a little amused at the panic hidden underneath it all in his eyes.
Still at a loss, Kiku looks up at the nurse and he repeats what Ludwig had done: he nods. Upon seeing the slight quirk of her lips, he
looks away, embarrassed.
snickers silently when the nurse leaves, patting the spot on the bed next to him again. "What did you think she asked?"
gets off the chair and he sits beside Ludwig, giving him a small shrug. "I'm...not sure," he finishes lamely, rubbing the back of his neck.
"She said you looked a little underfed and that she is getting you some of the leftovers," Ludwig explained with a small, fond smile.
feels his cheeks warm at this and he pursed his lips for a moment, before he spoke. "...why?" he couldn't help but ask.
snorts very softly. "She's a nurse. Much like doctors, they have pledged to help everybody who is in need... Even though there are some who
think that their own people deserve quicker and better treatment."
looks down at his hands, flexing his fingers. Had he lost that much weight..? He hums in acknowledgement at Ludwig's explanation before he
sidles up against the German's side much like he had done yesterday.
wraps his arm around the smaller one's shoulders again. "You... you really should eat more," he mumbled.
nods in response. "So should you, Ruuduwiggu-san. You're a little pale," he points out. "..the nurse..what did she say? Something good..?"
nods. "She said if the doctor gives his okay, I may be released tomorrow... I think it means that I'll be sent back to Germany, where they
will teach me how to walk again.
looks at him, his eyes lighting up for the first time in a while. "*Doitsu*..? Then, your leg..! It's better? It's really better?"
nods. "It is. It has healed to the point where they seem to think that I can be released," he elaborates with a small smile. "W-will... you
come with me then?"
The sudden questions throws him off and he cranes his neck to stare up at Ludwig, unable to hide his surprise. "With you...to *Doitsu*?"
"Yes," he answers. "Even though my condition has gotten better recently, I still need a lot of help. Usually I would have hired a sailor to
help me, but I'd much rather have you by my side... As my right hand, so to say," he admits with a sheepish smile.
There was a small pause and not long after a genuine smile erupts across Kiku's face. "Of course, Ruuduwiggu-san. Though I don't think I am
skillful as this *sei-ra* you speak of.."
"Oh, I do think you are. Sailors are usually men who aren't the brightest, but can keep themselves upright during a storm," Ludwig chuckled,
tempted to ruffle the Asian's hair just like he would do with a dog's fur.
quirks his brow, amused. "Is that so..what can a *sei-ra* do to help you though, Ruuduwiggu-san?"
"Well, basically... Keep *me* upright during a storm," he chuckled. "When I need to empty my stomach over board."
"You are.." he tried to look for the words but fails to summon them in his mind. "..not good with moving?"
"I haven't practiced walking like this yet, so I'd need somebody to help me... And you know, the sea can be rough," he said sheepishly.
"Ah, of course," Kiku laughs softly, feeling a little silly now. The image of him trying to hold Ludwig up was somewhat amusing, but he
kept this to himself and he sinks against Ludwig's arm, comfortable. "Perhaps you must eat some pickles? They are good when you feel sick."
makes a face. "I like pickled cucumbers once in a while, but I think we will be having pickles more than enough on the long sail... So I try
to have fresh food as often as I can."
hums in response before he shifts his weight against Ludwig. "Am I not straining your arm, am I?"
"No, it's fine...but I noticed I've lost a lot of strength during these weeks," he mumbles and sighs, but pulls Kiku a bit closer. It's that
moment when clatter from a woman's heels on the floor can be heard outside as the nurse returns.
finds his cheek nestled against Ludwig's chest and he sighs softly, sinking into his warmth. He hears footsteps beyond the door and in an
instant, Kiku straightens and he retreats from Ludwig's embrace, embarrassed as the nurse walks in with a tray. He avoids her gaze.
"There you are... Huh? Are you alright?" she asks as she places the tray on Ludwig's bed, where there's conveniently enough space.
He simply gives her a small nod and mumbles out a thank you, still not meeting her eyes. He didn't want to see what was reflecting in them.
Feeling his temperature on his forehead and his pulse, the nurse frowns, then sighs. "Please make sure to eat all of this... if you want
more, please don't hesitate to contact me, yes?" she smiles. Ludwig on the other side can't hold back a small chuckle, but he is glad that
she is bossing him around so much... and has him eat.
feels a blush blossom on his face at the touch of those cool fingers on his forehead and he nods once more, a little more ferverently than
before as he accepts the tray she has passed over to his hands. He frowns a little at Ludwig's chuckle, giving him a soft jab with his elbow
as a manner of chastising him. "*Mou*.."
"Seems like your temperature is a little high... But you look like you're a little dehydrated too. I will get you more to drink while you
eat," the nurse chirps. "When was the last time that you have eaten properly?" Ludwig watches her amused as she leaves again, shaking her
head over the malnutrition in the army. "Don't give me that look," he says to Kiku, trying to look innocent.
scowls a little and he looks down at the tray, astonished with the amount of food which the nurse has given him. He stares at it, his
fingers tightening around the handles. "Ruuduwiggu-san, I think this is yours.." he murmured, about to pass the tray to the other.
"Oh no, no, I already had my dinner. And she gave it to you, so now eat it," he gives back, raising a hand to ward off the tray.
looks a little scandalised and he stares at Ludwig, awestruck. "M-Mine? Eh b-but it's too much! I-I can't take this!"
"Well, you looked starved to the nurse, so if I were you, I'd eat as much of it a I could or otherwise she'd tie you down to a bed and force
Feed you."
He opens his mouth to protest at this but he clamped his mouth shut, feeling a little useless for being cared for like this by another. He
pulls the tray closer and upon slowly inching out of his awkward shyness and comfort zone, he slowly starts to eat, minding his mannerisms.
watches him eat, fondly, but keeps quiet. Instead, he closes his eyes after a while, enjoying the silent sounds of the other chewing.
Throughout his chewing, he steals a few glances to Ludwig, feeling self-concious as the man watches him for a moment. After a round of
silence (save for the quiet munching), Kiku lowers his cutlery and turns to look Ludwig with an anxious look. "..are you going to rest
again, Ruuduwiggu-san?" Was his leg causing him to tire so easily..? Kiku was starting to doubt if Ludwig was being honest about his leg.
"Ah, yes... it's a habit I have adapted to during the past few weeks... it's not like there's much else to do here anyways," Ludwig says,
eyes opening drowsily again. "Also, it's night time..."
But he just woke not long before...? Kiku bites around his fork, trying to hide the look of disappointment on his face. Strangely enough, he
wanted to spend as much time with Ludwig as possible, even if no words were exchanged between them.
peeks an eye open sheepishly. "I guess I have to catch up on all the sleep I lost during the past few years."
simply nods at this. He couldn't argue and he certainly couldn't be so selfish. Setting down his cutlery, he sets his tray on the adjacent
seat and makes some room for Ludwig to rest. "Ruudu-san, your leg..is it really alright..?"
nods. "It's alright. I can't... I should not use it too much at the moment, but it's good now. And to be honest, I can't see these walls
anymore."
"Can't see the walls..?" That worried Kiku more. He wondered what Ludwig meant by that but he refrained himself from voicing out his
thoughts, putting the man's wellbeing first. However.. "You look like you were in pain everytime you sleep," he said quietly.
"...Did I now," he says quietly, sighing softly. "I've been told to have had nightmares before, maybe that's what it's about?"
inches closer to the other, his hand brushing against Ludwig's arm. "Do you..remember what they were about?"
"No," he says a little too quickly. He remembered some of them, and those were mostly about bombings, getting attacked, trapped and buried.
surmises Ludwig for a moment but he remains quiet for a moment, taking in the creases on the man's forehead. "I had a dream about *sakura*
once," he said, more to himself than Ludwig.
"Sakura?" he asked, trying to remember if his memories were correct about this. "You mean..."
"Cherry blossom'" he clarifies with a small smile. "I dreamt about going to a *hanami* with someone. It was a wonderful sight."
"Oh... I thought... Well, the tale about why sakura are pink..." he mumbles. "But it sounds like yours was a good dream."
shifts a little and he boldly reclines on the bed, his side pressing against Ludwig's. "Not really. It was abstract. I couldn't understand."
"Hm.." he gives back, frowning a little as he tries to remember something about dream reading to help Kiku analyze what he had dreamt about.
"I couldn't see my company's face," Kiku elaborates with a sheepish smile, feeling a little embarrassed now that Ludwig was looking at him
with a thoughtful frown. "It distressed me."
"Mhm..." He had dreams like that as well, but it never really distressed him like that. "Was it really that bad?"
pauses to think. "I don't really know because I do not recall having such which stirs such a reaction as this before.."
chuckles at the complicated Kiku's wording. "Well, maybe you will have the dream again and this time you may be able to see their face."
A small smile rises on Kiku's lips. "Perhaps..yes, that would be good." He lifts his hand to touch Ludwig's face gently. "Is it strange for
me to wish that it was your face?"
blinks, then looks away, obviously blushing as he mumbles, "I'd be honored... if that was the case." He turned his head back to Kiku with a
small smile. "Really."
He traced his fingers across the man's scar gingerly, wanting those blue eyes on him. "Does it hurt?" he asks softly.
does not even flinch at the touch, but his lips quiver and he has to hold back a chuckle. "It tickles a bit," he admits.
"Tickles.." He continues to trace it, unable to hold back his childlike curiosity for something so grotesque as this. The raw skin was
smooth under his fingers and he takes it in delight as Ludwig flinches a little at a particular stroke.
"Ah, hey, that feels a little weird," he squirmed and tried to get away from the touch. He wonders if Kiku has a particular sadistic strike.
His lips twitches a little at the comment but he continues to touch Ludwig's scar lightly, his eyes lighting up a little.
squirms a bit more, which makes the stump move up and down and it does look grotesque to himself, but he confirms that Kiku definitely has a
sadistic streak.
"Ruuduwiggu-san.." he calls softly and upon ceasing the gentle strokes across the sensitive skin, he leans in and presses a kiss to the
man's lips, shuddering a little in excitement at the familiar touch.
blinks, eyes fluttering shut as the uncomfortable sensation is replaced with much pleasurable kisses and he pulls Kiku onto his lap as he
deepens the kiss.
shifts over until he is straddling over Ludwig's body, his fingers curling against the man's face
in slight possession as he welcomes the deep kiss, groaning softly. He parts his lips hungrily to accomodate the other's tongue.
possessiveness*
(( Oh god, I HATE how plurk is NEVER notifying me if this plurk gets a reply. ))
kisses back just as hungrily as he notices that this was something that he had missed for a long time. Basically ever since he had left Kiku
and everybody else. One hand comes to rest on the Asian's hip, holding him in place as he realizes with a certain amount of joy that despite
the missing leg, the rest of his body functions perfectly to the given stimulations.
(( ;w; /shares your sentiments as well ))
makes a small sound of appreciation at the touch to his hip and kisses Ludwig with much honestly that even it surprises him. After a while,
he pulls back and he stares down into Ludwig's eyes, gasping for air and excited by the lust reflected in them. "I need you," he whispers.
(( It's only *this* plurk! I don't get it! But it sucks monkey balls! ))
reciprocates the lust in Kiku's eyes, nodding at his request. " I need you, too... but I'm afraid I'm not of much help."
bucks his hips suggestively and he presses another kiss to Ludwig's parted lips. "Allow me," he murmured as his fingers raked through the
man's hair before they dropped to his gown, tugging it a little.
(( /will toss my slippers if plurk isnt notifying this to you again ;o; ))
nods slightly, hunger reflected in his eyes. "Everything you want."
settles himself comfortably against Ludwig's body as his fingers quickly began to pull aside the garment; all the while dropping a kiss here
and there. There is a disturbing amount of desperateness in his reckless actions but he couldn't care less then. He wanted to feel Ludwig.
runs his hand though Kiku's hair and over the expanse of skin that he can reach, sensing the desperation but displaying the same notion
himself.
shudders at the touch of Ludwig's fingers skirting across his heated skin. When the gown fell away, he dives his face into the man's neck,
burying his nose there to take in that distinct smell of the other. He grips Ludwig's arm, stilling to calm himself. He shouldn't rush.
shivers slightly when the cold air hits his heated skin, moaning almost inaudibly when he feels Kiku breathe him in deeply.
"Ruuduwiggu-san.." he calls quietly as he runs up and down the other's abdomen, well aware of heat gathering beneath him. "Please."
the tips of his fingers*
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"I cannot do much," Ludwig breathes lowly, even though his fingers dig into the other's hips already.