when wil this stop.

when will the ethernal sadness turn to joy

why are people so cold all the time .

have a positive attitude, you'll be surprised how much better the world around you seems.

well had that but now it allways falls apart

i'm allways alone .

stuck in a routine full of bullshit .

everyone at school angers me

i'm loosing my mind ... when will people understand me and stop mocking me ...

i forget the sensation of happynes and any positiv sensation .. how did it come to this i never did enough wrong to be in this situation .

then find out what makes you happy and do it. you're an adult, you can decide where you want your life to go.

being an adult is just a name for a certain age groope so to me it means nothing.

becides being an adult just is so full of bull shit and rules on how to talk to people everything is to caotic and controled at ...

the same time

i'm starting to hate welding .. and i need it to have a stable job ... to be able to be a good "adult" and be usefull ... to the world.

when the hell is the world usefull .

everyone is too buisy for me or if i want to meet people all theyu do is play with there fucking phones.

what is the world comming too everyone is just a bunch of selfish pricks out there .

everyone hates me anyways because the only thing i'm good at is being used . being the last call of reinds that want to hang out being there

for anny reason that does not help me but them ... i'm just sick of people that i thaught were good stabing me in the back pertending to be

freinds .

when will i love somone that will love me back for real .... never because i'm too fucked up because of all thoes false lovers .

always depresed now were is the way out i do not know ...

i'm so week i just keep on crying for no reason . why am i whriting this i do not want pity . i just want to be happy .

seriously Ralf, cheer up.

easy for you to say . you never are on your own how the hell do you know what it is like!

I'm on my own very often. I work a shit job, and I have stupid issues with my parents leaving me not wanting to be home

I have pointless arguements with my boyfriend that make me increasingly upset, and I rarely see my friends

It's life. you have to work hard to get where you want. and if you sit around moping, you're not going to get anywhere.

I know exactly what it's like. I have a hard time sleeping at night sometimes because I'm upset.

But I find, the more positive of an attitude I keep, regardless of the people around me, I'M happy.

So at least try. All this rant sounds like is that you're looking for attention because you don't see people as much as you'd like to.

If you have a job, at your age, the reason why you don't see your friends, is because they probably have work or school also.

And if you're friends are always stabbing you in the back, I can't imagine what your enemies are like. It's time to find new ones.

Everyone has their off days. And obviously, Vicky and I are concerned enough to at least tell you to cheer up. We're here. But if you want

your life to change, it's not up to us, it's up to you.

well thanks for the concern ! verry apreciated ! i was just having lost control ov my emotions and i hope it does not happen to much again .

amen. you gotta take advice even if you don't think the person understands. things aren't always as they seem.