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with no hope, I need to face everything my self including search the apartment. I don't want live alone

That is my question, I dont' know why my personality characterist is so ugly? I don,t want that

but just dont know how to chang, someone would say, just changing!and cheer up

It's seem so easy

But really it is?

someone is used to have a good life and regular rule will hard to understand why I am so hard to chang shit! I just like a shit