i just read your post. holy hell womna

The sad thing is.. I got tired of writting, and cut it short. I hope he suffers in life. lol

god will get him he got my ex HARD. LOL.

I added you!

The man I was dating before Joseph, has been my best friend for 7 years. Always picked up the pieces from when Joseph would do stuff to me.

AND NOW... I think God kept him in my life, cuz he's the one for me. I'm scared to take that chance tho. =/

aw, honey don't be scared. God wouldn't put someone in your path to deliberately hurt you.

he's not a vengeful God in the slightest.

He's been my rock for 7 years. I think I'm kinda afraid IM going to hurt HIM.. I've been through a lot. I don't know if I know how to relax.

ah, I understand you there.

I have this nervous twitch shit going on. lol. I'm super jumpy. I actually busted a few people in the face this week. Total accident tho lol

I think it ties into all that stuff, honestly.

it could

Counseling might be in my near future. But they make me cry, just by saying "Hi, my name is such n such". lol

lol, they aren't too bad. Will thought the same thing before we started pre-marital counseling but i love it

I ALWAYS wanted to do marital counseling. Maybe because it was more of a group setting, though. I don't know.