well it's not even really homesick

it's more familysick

like I don't want the companionship of any of my friends

maybe my friends back home idk

I just want me family around

not even talking to me necessarily

just... one room over like I'm used to them being

I wasn't even this homesick at the beginning of last semester

and now I feel it terribly

gog am I even gonna wanna go back to college next year lol

I guess it doesn't help that my schedule is absolute fucking shit this semester

gog seriously the more I think about it the sadder I feel

ok I just

gotta take my mind off of it...

... I'm gonna fall asleep thinking about how my future looks totally empty and I'm going to flunk out of college and be alone for the

rest of my life again, aren't I ;;

I COULDN'T FALL ASLEEP FOR AN HOUR LAST NIGHT BECAUSE THAT'S ALL I COULD THINK ABOUT

I WAS on the verge of tears and I just saw my future as this terrible void and

when I woke up I didn't feel that way at all but now that I'm feeling all homesick like this

that feeling is gonna come back and I won't sleep tonight ;;

4eheahfao;id

ok this has been my emotional breakdown post of '11

hopefully this is my first and last

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

and now a KK Slider song posted to tumblr is making me feel better..

ok, miss moodswings |:

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