am having a lot of trouble deciding if I want to stay or go.

On one hand, I haven't been good to this rp lately. I just haven't. I haven't been around. It might be because I've become an elitist, or

it might be that I've been too sucked up in my life to properly respond. I'm pretty sure it's mostly the second one.

On one hand, you guys are so awesome. Made of awesome. I love you all. And I don't just want to abandon you.

But on the other, you deserve a better Spain who can interact more. I'm pretty sure at least one of you is upset at me because I haven't

been around, at this point, but. If you have any thoughts, let me know.

...-Hates to be the first response to this, but has to sleep soon and doesn't want to go without saying anything- I... don't want to make

you stay if you don't want to. And hell, I've probably been a bitch lately. But... I don't think I'd ever find a Spain I liked as much as

you. To be honest, I'd get on my knees and beg for you to stay if I wouldn't feel like a total prick for doing it. And my opinion probably

doesn't quite matter. I'm probably part of the reason you'd like to leave. But.... If you want to stay, I'll always take you, and I'm sure

everyone else will.

You'd be surprised how much your opinion matters. You're one of the main reasons I'm still considering staying.

We've built up so much, and I just...I just can't leave you to it. Because I've had to do that before, have a new character jump into a time

line that was already created. And it sucks for all the people involved. It really does.

We all realise that each member of the rp will leave eventually. If you feel like your time is now, don't let us hold you back.

Though if you ever feel like coming back, we'll have our arms open for you.

On the other hand, if I left, you wouldn't have to worry about reading other pairings with Spain, and you wouldn't have to confine yourself

to just me, either.

Iggy I know. I really do. I'm...really on the fence about it. I talked with Russ about it a couple days ago, and I talked with Port

today. and I still haven't decided.

;A; España, te extrañare si te vas. You practically saved my life the other day. I'll miss so much talking in Spanish with you ;w;

I don't want to *keep* you here though. I'd be so happy, so *damn* happy if you stayed. Even if we didn't roleplay at all. Because I really

Welll...if I do decide to go, you know you guys can always MSN me and stuff; you can text me, blow up my phone if you feel like it!

It's all if's at this point, really. ;3;

enjoy just plain talking to you. And I hate that I'm nervous to talk to you sometimes, because it feels like I'd annoy you. But I try.

I've told you a million times, silly girl, talking to you doesn't annoy me at all ;3;

pfffft... You mean I can send you EngSpa hate messages? 8,D

Hell yeah. 8D

;3; I understand if you have to leave. *is a sucker for goodbyes*

If you guys want it/don't have it already, my MSN is [email protected], and my phone number is 17039875571. And I get unlimited

text and video and pic and stuff. so really. spam the hell out of me, even if I don't leave 8D;

Yeah, but.... I don't know. Sometimes I feel like an *obligation* or something. And I don't want that. I want you to be able to roleplay

with people here without thinking or worrying about me.

;3; can I add you too?

You don't have to ask, Russ >u>

You're not! I won't lie, there are some points where I do worry about yo--like when we were doing the EngSpa, I felt really bad because I

know that you hate it ;;;

But you definitely shouldn't be afraid to talk to me ;uu;

But you shouldn't feel bad. I mean, it's a little iffy when you shove it in my face or something, but you know, I do know how to mute

;w; /will still miss you as Spain.

We'll all miss you.

things. I just... I mean, I can't help but wonder if there's something wrong with me because it feels like I have to force you to roleplay

I know, I know. Fff. I just feel bad anyway ;;

with me.

Well, no. I mean. There is some stuff I want to talk to you about though.

The thing with other pairings was one. The other is about smut. I...I know it was totally me who got you to write it in the first place /

And I don't mind talking. Well, not now, since I should be asleep. But I'd rather you yell at me than sit there annd suffer.

(ignore the slash there.) but there are definitely other things to write. Lately I haven't wanted to write it, and I feel bad because well--

it's an age thing. It really is. When I was your age (oh god i'm so old lol), it was all I wanted to write. And nowadays I barely do anymore

. Sometimes it's okay, but not all the time, okay? c:

And I'm not gonna yell at you honey XD

...I just... I do like writing other things. But it's hard to when you're not really... here to start a whole plot...

Yeah. I know that. But during the office theme, that seemed to be all that it was about; it was why I shied away from it 8D;

I didn't really mean to make it like that... it was more like a joke that kind of... blew way the fuck out of proportion.

Yeah 8D;

But, I mean for Supernatural theme we smutted once. And still had a fun time. It's most certainly not the only thing I want to do.

Dude. Supernatural theme was *the best*.

I loved it. So, so much.

D-did you? ////

Yes! That's everything I want in a roleplay. 8D Your witch!Lovi was pitch perfect in tsun/dere levels and boss was an idiot and just.

I loved it.

Fff-- I was far too frightened witch!Lovi was too deredere. But really, I always wondered if I did something wrong because after that theme,

/agrees. Your supernatural was fun to read~

we just couldn't seem to roleplay at all.

Maybe it was just that that theme was so good, it was hard to live up to it. ;3;'' I dunno. I was also kind of sort of super busy all july

8D;

=w= I just blamed myself a lot, I s'pose. And grew too scared to even ask you to roleplay.

...you guys this text conversation I'm having with iggy is ridiculous.

Fff. Yeah. 8D; It's been a weird couple of months.

Well...I guess this theme is gonna be a trial and error for me, then. If I can't get back into it after this, then I will drop.

... what conversation?

And if I'm not available to RP all the time, I have classes and life and everything in the World of Sierra is kind of a giant clusterfuck

so. 8D;

-Takes a deep relieved breath- I'll try my best to be a good Lovi. Or just back off so you can rp with Iggy.

Oh. Iggy and I have been texting each other for the past five minutes. XD Iggy from here.

The back o yo head is redikulus. /shot

XDD

PAY MY CHILD SUPPORT, DAMMIT

I SEE NO PROOF.

*POINTS AT CHILD'S BROWS*

...but yeah

getting back to more serious stuff. 8D;

Alright, Lovi. >u>;;

The only other thing I wasn't particularly happy about with this theme was the background for Lovi in it. But it's too late to change it now

lol

so I'll go in gung-ho \o\

...Oh, I'm sorry.... I would've double-checked, but.... you weren't really here...

Yeah. Don't worry about it! \o\ You've just gotta remember he's kind of sort of Catholic. And that he prooobably wouldn't go into that sort

of business. But. It's your character.

So it's up to you.

>3> I guess my headcanon for this theme was that their parents died when they were really young and they stayed isolated from the world, so

there was really no one to enforce the religion. And then it was a "do what you have to to protect your brother" thing.

Yeah. ;3; Well, in the end, he's yours to take care of. Just make sure you dont cross the Mary Sue line. ;D <3 /shot

..../Holy shit now is gonna worry for the rest of her life that she's crossed the Mary-Sue line

XD I was joking. BUT IT;S A GOOD GUIDELINE TO FOLLOW /srs fase

Y-yeah... I-I'll try.... >~>

GO TO BED. 8|

I'm gonna go too. Even though I don't have class till 1:30 tomorrow ;D

Night guys...and thanks for convincing me to stay, at least for a little while c:

OKAY! /Kisses cheek and scrambles

night night <3

Que duermas bien, night spain~

*eye twitches* . . .

Welll, I sorta figured it was Hungary that was mad at me. =A=;; if you really want me to leave, I will.

wait, what, summary for me: spain is reluctant to rp because of the smut?

and considers leaving because she's not being here like she should/would?

Yeah, more or less. =u=;;; But, I'm gonna stay for the pirate theme. And if I can get back into the swing of things, then I will

stay for good. If not, then I will leave.

hey, I'm not smutting anymore because i'm just feeling out of the character for a while, Only if i can get back into smutting is to have a

break.

we've all had that problem before. :/ It's the "partner"'s duty to endure then and do some srs plotting

It's not that we are super smutters.

*nods* Though some of us are more than others. *Sighs*

Dude, it's not everyone 8|

XD It is, trsut me

Ahahaha. It's just I found it hard to write with Lovi because that's all we wrote about during the office theme orz

BUT I DIGRESS. Y'all are stuck with me for at least another month ;D

PFFT It's all I did with Feli for Office XD

Pffft Germany did more with me..

*sucked Husbando dry* =3=

you see, i'm now all dried up, i need to get more "water".

Oh I entered this convo at the wrong time...

=3= My fault, sorry

8|?

it's okay! i enjoyed the smutting

Yay for spain not leaving! And I guess apart from the necessary innuendoes pirates is a good theme for plotting.

Exactly what I was thinking =u=

=u=b

/loves pirate theme <3

I'm not angry at you D8 I noticed you weren't interacting with Lobibb that much~ *pinches cheeks*

I thought you were, with the stuff you said to Prussia and everything ;;;;;AAAA;;;;;

Nah, that I was referring to you luring to Spain's crew IC. /sobs for horrible joking

DONT LEAVE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!