i am alone. I just lost everything. She's everything to me. EVERYTHING...

I just.. need her. Without her , i have no life. Cause she's my life.

trust me.. this is completely different. I would do anything and give everything for her. Which i did.

And all i want .. is for her to just stay with me..

selfish i might seem..but.. sometimes its just because you love that one person too damn much.

Oh and.. 2ndMoon er , do i know you ?

i wish she can see how much i truly love her.. and to what extent i would do . Just to be with her.

i just wish she'd understand.. from the beginning since we got together. i never once , even looked away or turned away from her.

i kept fighting , i kept holding on. I gave it my all. To give her everything she wants.

then why didnt she choose me..? ..

i made her my center.. she's all that i have. all that i want

am i just not good enough..?..

I really really wish.. to be with her. i'd trade everything that i have. everything that i am. just for her.

and yet.. i can so arrogantly say.. that no one in this world .. loves and wants her.. more than i do..

i really dont know anymore..i really dont know..

i....

am lost without her.

her ex..

she has to choose between her ex and me.. although i really didnt want that to happen.. because i know..that its so hard for her..

but..the choice...

im a guy.. they say guys shouldnt cry. and yet . i've been crying since yesterday. up until now

her ex can take away everything else that i have.. but not her. i will never let her go... no matter what..

i needher so badly..

i did...i tried..i really did...even know.. im still am telling..

she chose..i wish it was me... i really do .. so badly..

and yet.. i still keep fighting.. since the beginning..

she asked me if im tired..and told me to rest.. but im not tired. i dont wnana rest

i wont rest till i have her.. and im not even tired..

im wishing so badly.. dangling on the hope that i will get her back..

im sorry for bugging you .. sorry if im disturbing..