i was trying to be nice and when my downstairs neighbor asked for my number because he has little parties or whatever, i gave him my number. and you know how some guys just sit there and make sure that the number you gave them works

but i didn't think anything of it because he saw that my pride flag was burned in my car when someone tried to steal it this summer. and i am openly queer, since telling people i'm asexual may be too confusing, so i simplify it "i'm not straight", etc

and i also explicity told him thati have social anxiety, that i'm genuinely not a social person, new people make me uncomfortable. and i did so beacuse i didn't want him to take it personally. he's a social buttlerfly so he talks to all the neighbors around here. again, didn't think anything of it

sometimes during the weekends, he invites people over and they have watch parties or whatever downstairs. he's not loud, neither are his guests, so no skin off my back

but last night, he didn't have people over so he texted me inviting me over to watch a movie with him

and this was just after i took my trazodone, so i was going to be out like a light soon, told him i was going to bed and thanked him for the offer... i'm just trying to be nice

but i woke up this morning and after i put my phone on silent and went to bed, i dind't see him text back saying "you can sleep on my bed" and i just

i swear to god, you could have "i am gay" tattooed on your damn forehead and men will be like "but you'll sleep with me, right?" jfc

i have freaking pride flags

and i am at the age where i'm not thinking naviely "oh, maybe he meant i can fall asleep in his bed" um no. you're a single guy and you are being not too subtle about what you want to a queer femme

congratulations, dude, now i am going to avoid you

and i regret giving him my number. like, i can't do it, ever, period, again. because there is only this one guy who thinks "she's nice to me, so she must want me"

i remember back in 2016, i was talking to other neighbors and this one guy tired to get me into his apartment for another beer (i had my own and i was just hanging out)

Ewwwwwwwww

block him

recipeh: one step ahead of you

yikes

i blocked him and told him again I'm not attracted to men. I'm so glad I'm leaving this place

Good