i was supposed to be going in to work today for our big company offsite which required me to get up at 7 fucking am. BUT

my insulin pump port freaked out last night and kinked the tubing so my stupid numbers shot to 500 🙃

so i couldnt sleep until 2 am for fear of. actually dying. while feeling like i was actually dying

so i had to be like well!! im missing the morning!! sorry folks

and now im even running late to the later time i gave them and im HSJDNDBSGSG

HI EVERYONE, THIS IS THE WORST FIRST IMPRESSION OF ME EVER MADE

this is why i work from home lmao

trying to get to the subway and not obsess over how weird its gonna be making my terribly late enterance alone

its also like. this is less general anxiety and more disability feelings but damn i was hoping to be less disabled on main longer than this lol

the amount of people who will ask me if im okay today preemptively disgusts me. and yes im aware that makes me sound like a psychopath

(goro akechi voice) caring about me? fuck you. yell at me for fucking up its EASIER

baby girl no

god and this subway platform is?? packed?? with no trains coming for 10 minutes????

its a good thing i dont believe in signs or some shit bc damn if everything isnt telling me to go the fuck home

oh MY GOD my ipod apparently tried to refresh right as i was leaving the house so now i only have like. 10 songs. fuck you spotify what do i even pay you for

AND I CANT EVEN LISTEN ON MY PHONE BC NO HEADPHONE JACK GOD I AM GOING TO KILL

ah. okay. the subway burst into flames basically. got it. super got it

fucking hate my life LMAO

literally just starts screaming

HELLO????

WHAT THE FUCK

at this point I would just pay for a car like this is ridiculous LOL

its SO fucking expensive

literally like $70 im going to start biting

god one train came but it was the wrong one and i feel so fucking stupid for not taking it i should have known something was wrong. god damnit

and i dont even have music.

goddamn i left some shit uploaded on my ipod and even now its like no go on wifi

check your venmo and take a damn car LOL

oh my god

Fuck hon that’s infuriating

Holy fuck that's the universe telling you DON'T GO.

finally made it. its 12:40. hopefully theres lunch left lol

I love you!! You got this

Fight and win

got lunch and now trying to be so normal so WE WILL SEE

YOU ARE THE NORMAL QUEEN

I am neither asking if you're okay nor ignoring you but doing a secret third thing (agreeing with you that this sucks ass and hoping your day gets better, because damn).

when the subway bursting into flames isn't the worst lart of your day, you know you're going through a rough one D: I hope things level off and are less wild from here!

thank you all, i did make it in and we are out team building now aka oh god our ceo is Very Good At Cornhole

(i am bad at cornhole)

FLOPS HOME IM FREE

at least for like. an hour and a half lmao

take a nice deep breath and let yourself relax <3

i took a shower and it was so fuckin great

had to remove the Manhattan from myself

day 2 and my train is running local after forcibly skipping 2 stops to (checks notes) POSSIBLY THE CEILING CAVING IN?

you cannot make me miss commuting. you Cannot