gonna shower in scalding hot water and abuse it with more pressure massager.

also my hands were so cold and dry today my skin started to Crack on my fingers 8C

8C

God. fifteen minutes in the shower and I could touch the ground with my hands. that's a little better.

my back was decompressing which hurts so bad, but it popped like 3 different times when I was just bent over letting my spine stretch.

I'm sure it wouldn't do that if my work bag wasn't like 70 pounds.

ouch!

oof, that's a lot of bag to haul around

is the pressure massager one of those massage gun thingies? (my mum has one and i call it the meat tenderizer. it's amazing.)

yessss it is. David just beat the shit out of the giant knot sitting right on the back of my hip.

I get sad when I have to lift it onto my shoulder at the end of the work day xD

man. part of me just wants to go to sleep but it's only 6:40

I found a bottle of 800mg ibuprofen in my medicine cabinet. this is dose 2 today. my back is death.

why can't I just lay here on the floor instead of crawling in this void?

oh hon, I worry for your back... have you seen a doctor? PT? Imaging?

David wants me to go if it doesn't get better tomorrow but I'm sure they're just going to just tell me it's inflamed and a knot and to treat it how I have been.

it's like right at the back, top of my hip.

they might give you PT to help figure out exactly how you can help keep it from getting so bad? :/

I can feel the knot. it's slowly getting smaller.

potentially? I think It started because I slept wrong