wondering if I'm nonbinary is nothing new, I've been doing it for at least a decade, but I always land on No because I genuinely don't mind being afab and having she/her pronouns etc

women contain multitudes and I am among them, I don't have to be super femmey about it, I can just be who I am

this has come back up again since I became a mom I think

but the sticking point for me is that I still have the gender dysphoria, in the sense of like. I wish I weren't a woman because I think people would treat me better. in our culture

so it's not, 'I'm not a woman and being called a woman doesn't feel right', it's 'I guess I am a woman but don't call me that because it sets me apart from my contemporaries and I want to be seen as one of them'

like being afab is just a constant uphill battle in our culture and I don't think identifying differently would change that for me

I want to be fucking treated better by my industry and not have career-ruining assumptions made about me because of who I actually am and not because I have tits

I don't want to disappear into my son and partner

which is something I feel like I am fighting 100% of the time (not because of anything they're personally doing)

being a woman just kind of fucking sucks. but I am one. and I'm mad about it

I've had similar thoughts of like "am I nb? ammm I?" and ultimately decided it doesn't matter cuz I wouldn't do anything about it anyway. i feel you on all this though :/

yeah lmao

I already dress pretty neutrally, I'm too tired to change my pronouns. also I think women should be defined as Whatever which means I shouldn't have to make the effort anyway

yeah 💯

Agree, especially the loss of identity with partner/kid

lol I'm also like 'and my job is dumb and I'm mad about it and also insane' and gotta step back like cami,,

think you might got the december depression

i stopped ID-ing as nb back in 2017 not because i felt any particular joy at being read as a woman but because i realized it just didn’t bother me. and i’ve done the same thing as you, aka revisit the subject and rotate it around in my brain like a rubik’s cube waiting for the gender to stop gendering so much

i’ve just decided i’m cis-ish because i just can’t be bothered to try to sort the rest of it out, i’m too tired

i know that doesn’t help you, i’m just 💕 solidarity feelings💕 at you

team "whatever, it's fine"

yeah lmao I don't even Need Help I'm just like.