I often have a little bit of a mood drop after I visit my parents, just because I have to go back to work right after
but between the sort-of fight with my boyfriend, the insurance thing, and feeling sick, I went from feeling decent yesterday and looking forward to seeing my boyfriend again
Sending love. It's been rough.
I'd spent the week feeling like things were better than they could have been and hey, guess what, your boyfriend who you thought was fine was actually pissed at you!
he said it was because I had enough I was worrying about, which is true to an extent, but the end result wasn't me being happy he'd spared me that
it was me feeling like an insensitive jackass, even though he's the one who lied to me the entire week about his emotional state!
I used to see someone who did this, and it was their idea of good communication because it meant they didn't start an argument but I think explaining how that method makes you feel, maybe yall can work on it 8C
he was receptive to me flat out telling him not to do it again, that I'd rather work it out when it happens
I also find that having little check ins either daily or weekly with David helps us a lot on how we are or how we're feeling. And it doesn't have to be everything, you both are allowed to be upset by things, just being open about it before it even has a chance to become some bigger issue, It has really helped us.
I think shit's just kind of tense right now
he's been working a lot and my whole situation with my grandmother has me pretty fragile
Which is understandable too. I'm super busy during the winter months cause of work, and he gets stressed out too since a lot of people take time off. If you are able, making little teensy plans to spend time with each other, even if it's just watching a movie, going to get take out or something. It helps ease some of that, no strings attached dates.
Looking forward to something when your stressed out, even if its just getting a fucking burrito together at chipotle, those are bright spots where you're both looking forward to it, and it's looking forward to it together, and being able to talk about how you're excited to do those things. I dunno. It probably sounds basic, but that kind of shit I love.
In any case, i hope things go well for you and him, and everything else slows down a little!!