Lol yeah im waiting on games until after abraxas

lol i would never make it in a game that required that much activity

some people can consistently do it but im too unreliable with my illness

i used to be able to tag like that

tessituras: saaame. I don’t have as good an excuse, even. I mean ...ok, technically I’m disabled and I’m beginning to realize that also the sheer number of CNS meds I’m on are just a mess, but I feel like there are so many people worse off.

But yeah like. As a teen I could churn ‘em out like that? But now between being unreliable and busy I just have to find my people who enjoy backtagging

Caletara: I am too! I just like to TDM. But even then at this point I’m restricting myself to I think...5 comments, maybe 10 if there’s lots of network. I’m much more likely to hit that or higher if there ISN’T strict AC, bc then I’m not anxious about it

Yeah that makes sense. Probably the type of game I'd go for too.

AC makes me anxious

(Check-in or threads but no strict comment count is my preference by a long shot. AC makes me SO anxious and I feel like a lot of the time it isn’t effective. If you write a long starter but don’t have a popular character, or you ARE disabled or anxious...is that your fault? I get wanting to discourage squatting or being really cliquey but.

me too! i do feel like low AC or check in AC games can be super slow and hard to get CR but counted AC is super anxious making

But I think as long as the game isnt like...SUPER DUPER PLOTTY or involved that it leaves enough time to CR then, it's okay?

CR is my love.

It’s true. I think that’s why Saltburnt is appealing to me rn bc that CR is INSANE and I’m not opposed to smutty games lol. Though I’m debating if i want to subject Teddy to inevitable horrors lol. (Idk. They’re easy to AU. I do have others I could fling that way though and a WHILE to decide.)

CR is absolutely my love too and tbh I think that’s why I judge myself so harshly for being SO slow. Like. I’m constantly thinking about what I want to do and then I sit down to do it and freeze or get avoidant or distracted. Why? Why why why when I could be developing all these relationships?

slow but steady is better than fast and occ!

..ooc

One day I'd love to game Seel and Teddy with you, if they are ever in a game together, it would be interesting.

I would love to play with any of yours! If not in game we could always PSL! And I know you’re right about OOC (and I even know being hard on myself isn’t going to help. It’s just hard to not.

<3 yay! and yeah, it's hard. I know we all want to do everything and fast but then its easy to get overwhelmed

seel ....you can kind of get an idea of the kind of person he is from the inbox

this is my favorite.

Lolll I enjoy the absolute small eyebrow arch vs angry small dog energy a lot here

I love Seel so much. He is very angry small dog energy. because he's an abusive asshole who has been leashed for everyone elses protection

i love and hate ac

like i dont like it when you have a castmate that you want to play with and theyre just not playing

but on the other hand my god my health does not allow me to play as much as i would like to

and it discourages people with OCs or older canons when you have to have a bunch of comments

because you can tag out as much as you want and still not make your ac, which is unfair

AC has its uses and I think it's mostly a relic of the days when RP was really full of a lot of people who had to have their blorbo in every game. It really was mainly a Highlander Discouragement Tool. It kept people from squatting in too many places, taking on too much. It's also useful for capped games, although...

there is probably some kind of argument to be made that someone who is in a capped game but not doing much isn't taking up mod time and energy, which is the whole reason capped games are capped. There are lots of debates to be had.

My own energy and tag output is super variable and depends a lot on what I'm getting back from other people, so I don't really feel like I'm the person to have those conversations.

But I will say that AC always makes me super anxious in a way that I don't enjoy. It doesn't motivate me. Even on months when I have, like, triple AC, no problem, it's in the basket, I'm always triple checking that I submitted it correctly. I was in a game where the mod did AC and that was the dream.

Like, you did not have to submit it. You just had to make sure posts got their character tags. And it was a mission game, so there was always stuff to do, and most threads got tagged once a day or at least a few times a week. But that is not fair to expect of mods in most cases.

I just don't know of other solutions to the problems that AC is meant to solve than having some kind of AC.

I do know that if you're psyching yourself out, it's better to stop, regroup, just do your tags.