plurking to maybe gather my thoughts or something, i don't know

oh right we're all unemployed too

that's cool

but basically i have been like. negatively motivated to job hunt since getting laid off

ofdiomedes: lmao yeah this is in fact something I talk about with my therapist

just. wow! sure are a lot of my friends who don't have jobs right now!!!

love that!!!!!

anyway

yeah

gestures capitalism

initially i was not doing a whole lot because i did not have access to the word file for my old resume as it was on the old laptop's harddrive

so instead i did some VO stuff. I submitted to a few agencies and a roster, did some auditions

i heard back from one agency, which was basically a "hey sorry not taking any non-local talent right now, try back in 6 months"

have heard back from zero auditions

which like. whatever. auditioning is a numbers game in a lot of ways, but also I do not have a ton of avenues for getting auditions without having representation or not being on a roster so like. gestures vaguely

I am also just. I'm not doing the Best at grinding for audition shit

like there's more I could be doing to build my VO body of work and advocating for myself but I just wake up and it's a crap shoot as to if I want to get into the booth and record

which is at least more than I can say for the normal job applications which have at this moment been zero

and i guess the problem with normal applications is just like

before getting laid off at D&D I will honestly admit I was not really doing a 40 hour job

and even then it was like. pulling teeth to get myself to do my job tasks sometimes

like I just. I could have been doing more, I recognized areas where I could have done more and was not doing it because I just didn't have the energy for it

and I deeply worry that I am not going to be able to pull it off for another full time job

like I just don't feel like I have my shit together enough to be a functional member of society

and it is very hard to feel that way while I know I need to get shit done. like I need to hustle, I need to talk myself up. I need to think about things that I could accomplish when I'm in a better state

but it's just like. nnope

anyway i just. i don't know. i am very adrift right now and I don't know what to do

honestly that very thing scares me a lot too

hi five all of us jobless folks...

mistakesweremade: it is kind of scary

a full time job is exhausting. we all fall into routines after a while where we learn where to cut corners, and where we can afford to scale back energy investment

ramping it back up for jobsearch or starting a new position is A MASSIVE LIFT, and i don't want to pretend otherwise

and like. ultimately. I am not in a position where I am in danger. even if I run out of severance and unemployment, my parents are incredibly supportive and I could probably even sell the condo and move back to minnesota and just. chill for a bit.

fuck i wish it were possible to survive off a minimum wage cleaning job

but I don't even really know what I'd do after that

mistakesweremade: god yeah i wish i could just get a job that doesn't require a lot of mental energy and call it good

but sadly that is not the case in this capitalist hellscape

As someone who has just made it out of the job hunt barely with a minimum wage job, the fear is real. but YOU DO have skills and experience, and no one can really be expected to put all their focus and energy into a job on a full time basis. it doesn't make you unworthy of work. but yeah... just saying that and knowing that doesn't get you a paycheck

I do have skills! and experience! what i lack is like. the wherewithal/energy to apply those things in any meaningful way, lol

if there was a way to swing the pets, I would say come crash at our place for a bit or something

yeah the pets do make it hard

though i do love them. they have been very supportive

I have been struggling with job search for different reasons even before [ongoing medical crises] but the root of them is also just. the fucking hellscape

holds your hand

holds hand. it is suffering

IT'S JUST REAL BAD TK. you're very good and ilu. I wish this wasn't a mutual state of ass. and also that fewer people we know also had to do it

i wanted to take my time, to get unfucked in the feelings. but now i feel like i have no choice but to move fast.

try not to beat yourself up too much

i know that sounds redundant but like

honestly, so much about why i stay in the military IS to take pressure off of myself in this capitalist hellscape.

the VO space is dire right now since the VOs are on strike for video games, which means that the competition for non-video-game VO roles is at an all time high

it's a rough time to break in

your worries are very valid but also like it's just real bad out there and that's not a reflection on you

Job hunting sucks, so many things are roughhh in every industry. You're not alone and you're well within your rights to lay and feel adrift.

same hat same hat with "can I even do a regular job anymore"

all we can do is muddle through