I am devastated.

My spouse and I may have just lost everything. 6 years he has poured into his PhD, we dropped everything to come to Ohio for it and now we'll be lucky if he ever gets a job.

He already gets death threats. Can't wait for more of those, or protecting his foreign colleague from hate crimes.

I can't pretend I'm okay. We were finally financially stable even to save money for the first time in our lives, but I'm sure it all goes to tuition now.

I don't know how I'll soothe his heartbreak or ever be friendly to my coworkers again. I don't want to go back to being friendly. I want them to understand just how badly they fucked up to make the most polite person in the room who always smiles reduced to the hateful shell i am today

But I'll soldier on. I always do.

I'll still post fun things I planned, because I was so looking forward to today. Creating a positive space and entertaining others is what I do.

But for now I just needed one space to air my grief. It wouldn't feel right to pretend I'm not.

I am so sorry

I am so sorry

A hugging emote feels a little empty and inappropriate for this, but definite hugs. I'm sorry.

I know what you mean, but I appreciate the sentiment all the same <3 thanks

In good news my spouse is taking this much better than expected. He and his colleagues got to meet up yesterday to discuss what this meant for all of them but his mentor assured he can definitely still finish the PHD and even if things go south here, he definitely has the skills to get hired in another country

Knowing that he feels strong enough to keep going is a weight off my chest because not being to cheer him up is what I feared most. We can weather anything as long as we're together

i'm really glad that he has support

because shit is really broken and it's awful

Yeah agreed >< every little small bit of comfort we can get is so important right now. I want to do my part to be strong for others too.

I'm so glad he has all that support, for both of you.

Yeah thank you. I know it definitely doesn't fix everything and things are still gonna be OOF but I wanted to assure people we're. we're doing okay today.