please let this be a good month.

sitting on my jacket so I don't leave.

she's honestly so cute

that precious face just daring you to move her

I sat on the ottoman and she moved to my lap

she is so good!

it's christine sinclair night!!

she scored!!!

just winessed a fistfight in the concession line

woooo clinched

seeing the substance at the theater rn

hah hah… what did i just watch?

in a good way or a bad way...

generally a good way, i think? but it was very a lot.

why doesn't the cat come with a mute button??

abigail knows i wake up at 6:30 and she is always there to remind me to feed her when the alarm goes off

abigail doesn't know about daylight saving time

rip

i am trying to up my mental/physical health game as part of my winter arc

and i am getting to the point where my treadmill workouts are not as much work. this is probably a good thing!! but now i'm like… to continue, must i go outside?

i need kadath's "going on a stupid walk for my stupid mental and physical health" image

also thinking about if i want to try adding weights/strength training b/c i recognize i don't do that and it's probably beneficial, but i do not know where i would find the time.

my mum had little ankle weights that she used to get more out of the treadmill because we are not outside people

oh, i have those

i also have a weighted vest i use sometimes to mix it up… but it's a good thing to remember i have the ankle/wrist weights, too

i use resistance bands for strength training bc i am weak but i just do it while i'm watching tv so it doesn't take up more of my time and also if i have to focus on working out specifically i will expire immediately

my mom was a physical therapist for old biddies and she would have them lift weights (cans of soup) while watching soap operas so that is where it comes from

that meme is so me yes

footage of me

thank you.

here 2 help o7

i bought a new desk and am rearranging my furniture to accomodate it… this is possibly a stress response.

i am still at war with abigail, who continues to not recognize the time change.

she can meow for an hour straight.

i thought maybe this means she needs to be played with more/needs more stimulation but she quiets as soon as she is fed. so i can either feed her, and wake up at 5:30 forever, or continue to try to hold out to see if she learns…

caesar is also still struggling. he does not understand why i am not feeding him at the appropriate time!

honestly i wouldn't mind waking up at 5:30 except i work until 9pm

yeah that's rough

i have explained to her the issue but somehow she doesn't change!!

abigail please

abigail is here to eat lunch with me and she says "meow"

did make myself a nice lunch

roasted chicken with vegetables and a quick mustard/thyme pan sauce.

for abigail: kibble out of a bag.

i got some devastating news yesterday that is keeping me somewhat distracted from the wider devastating news.

(my coworker's partner died, and he was young and it was sudden, and i did not know him but my mind keeps circling back to how awful for my coworker, how scary, etc etc.)

i am personally fine, safe, well. i ran a mile this morning. i am going to class, and then to work.

grip hand tight

same

i am going to go out to lunch.

that is so hard to go through, i remember when i lost a young coworker suddenly, that shit is tough on the brain.

Oh that's so upsetting. I'm sorry

yeah, i did not really know him and i'm still ruminating. just an awful reminder of our mortality. and of course i feel extremely sad for my coworker. everyone is (of course) pitching in to cover for her shifts the next few weeks, but that is a stress as well.

everyone is hurting and i hate that.

the nice things i am doing for myself today are:
— going to see a movie
— making some soup

maybe i'll also read some more midnight sun lol

i'm seeing double indemnity

god, what a good movie.

anyway, i seem to have decided i need to reorganize my entire apartment.

honestly decluttering is always a positive for me, i do much better when things don't feel overstuffed. but… is this a cope?

it's probably a cope.

i am the same

hooray?

the bad news is that i've also made a huge mess in the process of decluttering. summoning my best willpower and discipline that it does not remain in a perpetual half-done state.

that is the worst part yeah

also:

going a bit wild here maybe

small dumpling.

all right, my apartment is beginning to recover from the self-induced chaos and i lit my favorite salt candles from target, so everything smells nice.

i took a week off of work to work on an academic project but i am, nevertheless, working 5pm-11pm tonight.

she got her tail

the good news is that the decluttering/reorganizing i've been doing has i think resulted in an improvement, not simply a change. (i can fit my spare linens in the linen bench i have for that specific purpose now!)

the bad news is i have an idea for a gallery wall…

bitterends abigail's tail is so short it is hard for her to catch it so we must be very appreciative when she manages.

great job abigail!!!!!

a victory for abigail!! and good luck on your gallery wall-ing, it can be a lot of fun.

another thing about how i rearranged my apartment is that now when i sit down to eat at the table abigail sits down on the chair across from me.

this is cute.

I'm late, but DOUBLE INDEMNITY!!! we watched that in noir club (a thing a few plurk friends and I do, it's not mine it's grace's) a couple of years ago and it's one of my favorites we've watched, of the big classics I hadn't seen.

also chandler has an actual cameo in it

Raymond Chandler's Cameo in Double Indemnity - Mark ...

anyway, I will cross my fingers for your gallery wall

i had also never seen it but it makes sense i liked it because i also really enjoyed sunset boulevard

i've decided to see a movie tomorrow and i don't know if i will pick heretic (2024) or caged (1950)

i saw heretic, it's mostly an excuse for hugh grant to be a very monologue-y bad guy. and i am okay with that.

nice

have tickets to see conclave on sat with hadal!!!

and in important abigail news her delayed shipment of wet food finally came.

she has had to subsist on kibble alone for a few days.

abigail has truly suffered

but conclave!!!!! at last

Conclave looks cool!

went to bed without blowdrying my hair and now it's a big poof

i'm making coq au vin…

lazy coq au vin because i'm not chopping the vegetables up as much as the recipe says

also not gonna add brandy lol i'm not buying more alcohol for this, the thing i am making to get rid of my red wine bottle i've had forever

abigail is cloud

but a yell-y cloud

i know the meme isn't which cat is your cat but i feel it's important info

report: even lazy coq au vin is delicious. and now i've got leftovers.

doing a big closet cleanout today. i think i've gone down a pant size, which is annoying, because i got rid of all my "down a pant size" stuff a couple months ago.

(it was old enough i was likely not going to wear it anyway.)

bitzl is witch and solly is loaf. however, you are tux

i am actually deeply uncool as evidenced by the fact i have an account on plurk dot com

anyway i've had this terrible upper back/shoulder soreness the past few days. it's bad enough i may do exercises.

as it is, i've brought out my massage machine, which is helping.

also went to ballet which helped some. god. it's really bad though. i am going to try ice/heat for it next.

also trying "having a cat sit on my lap" as a form of therapy.

it was the cat's idea.

devastated to report that the cure to my upper back pain was walking a mile uphill in a weighted vest.

on the one hand i feel a lot better on the other hand i hate that the solution was exercise.

gladiator ii is a deeply silly movie, lol

i'm sorry, gladiiator

i did like the "face fuck the emperors" graffiti on the corner

laugh

it's so silly

i enjoyed it because i can't be serious about the roman empire but it is very ridiculous

the "dream of rome" lol

so many monkeys

rome is very silly and we need more silly rome content

the year of four emperors?? ridiculous

me every time they said the dream of rome

i laughed every time. what a silly movie good for ridley scott

agree.

anyway how do people not know the "hoc opus hic labor est" passage from the aeneid

"do people not know [literally anything about the aeneid]?"
no
they don't

i know but these guys were roman aristocrats from rome

i understand that i'm "weird" for knowing a famous passage from a canonical work of western literature

some may say i am constantly thinking about the roman empire, but they are wrong

i think about the roman republic.

it's me i'm the dream of rome!!!! i'm marcus aurelius lol.

laugh

friends, my lap is full of babbo

v important update imo!

it is

trying to figure out what i need to do before i leave for california for the holiday.

is it… pet my cat a bunch?

also yesterday got the disappointing news that they're gonna cut funding for the ballet class i go to. boooo.

o nooooo

it is happening sometime in the vague future not immediately but booo.

on a flight to california.

feel like the airline seats have somehow gotten smaller.

every single time im on a plane they feel smaller than the last time

^^

an emergent law of physics it seems

new portland airport is fancy though and some new food options!! a win.

today's challenge: make it through a day of family activities without anyone commenting on my weight

(difficulty probably impossible but hope springs eternal)

(we've already broached the topic of The Election but thankfully my immediate family is all anti-Trump)

now we are watching hot frosty

hell yeah