#Unnämed

I am a musician with no name.
I don't reveal my face, or much other information like my birthday or gender.
So that is me.
我是個沒有名字的音樂人，我沒有露臉或透露任何資訊，例如我的生日或性別。
總之，這就是我。

Actually, before I started this activity, I was doing something similar under a different name, but I needed to walk away from that without explaining anything to my old fan base, and that actually made my fans rush to find me.
事實上，在我以目前的形態活動之前，我曾經用不同的名字做著類似的事，當時我需要離開那裡、連一句解釋也沒留給從前的粉絲群，而這著實令我的粉絲們忙於尋找我。

They discovered my personal account and they were still saying that they wanted me to come back, but I felt like I didn't deserve their support at all.
So what I did was, I removed everything from my personal account to show that I'm Unnämed now.
I am absolutely no one.
I am not the person that you're trying to find.

他們找到了我的私人帳號、說他們仍希望我回來，可是我認為我根本不值得他們的支持。
這就是為何我會這麼做：我移除了私人帳號的所有東西，以表明我現在是個無名氏。
我誰都不是。
我不是你們要找的人。

#Start 起點

It might be a little bit of a long story, but before I became who I am now, I was a rock band vocalist under an indie label.
But later, my producer felt like I had no vocal talent and my vocals had no spark at all.
這個故事可能有點長，這是我成為現在的我之前所發生的事。
我原本是獨立音樂公司旗下一名搖滾樂團的主唱，可是後來，我的製作人認為我沒有半點聲樂天賦，我的歌聲完全沒有亮點。

I had four band members I needed to work with, but I wasn't a strong enough vocalist for them, so he replaced me with a better vocalist and then the band made their big debut.
我需要跟四個團員一起工作，但我的歌喉對他們來說不夠好，所以製作人換了更好的歌手給他們，然後樂團就正式出道了。

That made me really depressed, and my depression was so heavy that I couldn't sing on stage anymore.
I really hated my voice because I don't have any talent.
這導致我極度憂鬱，鬱結得再也無法上台演唱。
我真的恨透了我的聲音，因為我沒有任何天賦。

I felt like the people in the audience were judging me, judging my effort, judging my talent.
I felt like I didn't deserve the stage, like I wasn't a good at singing.
I had a lot of bad thoughts like that at the time.
我總覺得觀眾在批判我，批判我演出的成果、批判我有沒有才華。
我總覺得我不值得站上台，因為我不擅長唱歌。
當時我有很多像這樣的負面想法。

I often lost my voice onstage, and I threw up almost every time after performing.
That made me feel like I seriously had no future as a musician at all.
我時常在台上失聲，還有每次表演後我幾乎都會嘔吐。
這讓我真切地感受到，作為一名音樂人，我根本沒有未來。

So after that, I gave myself time to not do any kind of music work at all.
What I did instead was, I started a TikTok account and started doing silly content.
所以，後來我給自己一段時間去做跟音樂完全無關的工作。
我做了什麼呢，註冊抖音帳號，開始製作愚蠢的內容。

Surprisingly, within 10 months, I got 1.8 million followers.
I was really surprised and pretty happy to get the attention, but it struck me that people weren't following me for music.
令人吃驚的是，過了十個月，我就有一百八十萬個追蹤者。
得到關注使我又驚又喜，然而我猛地意識到人們並不是因為音樂而追蹤我的。

They just loved how I looked, but I still couldn't really give up on music then.
So at that time, while I was uploading TikTok videos, I also uploaded some cover songs on YouTube, but my fans didn't really appreciate that.
他們只喜歡我的外表，不過我還是無法放棄音樂。
所以那個時候，我一邊在抖音上傳影片，也上傳了一些翻唱到YouTube，但我的粉絲們並不賞臉。

My fans wanted me to do more "kawaii waifu" or cute girl TikTok videos, but that didn't make me happy at all.
I felt like I didn't know how to entertain them at all and started not enjoying making TikTok content anymore.
我的粉絲只想要我做些像是可愛女孩子的抖音影片，可是做那些事對我來說一點都不開心。
我壓根不曉得如何取悅他們，也不再喜歡製作抖音內容。

My true passion was music.
So I decided to switch to not revealing my face at all.
音樂才是我真正的熱情所在。
所以我決定轉為不露臉的形式。

Also, whenever I'm singing on my live streams, I'm singing at my sound booth in my home, in my room.
So I don't have to worry about any judging eyes, or anyone paying attention.
It makes me feel that I'm able to fight back against my depression.
That's why I became a musician with a virtual body.

另外，每次在直播上唱歌的時候，我都是在家中的錄音室或房間裡，所以我不必擔心他人打量的視線、或任何人的注目。
這讓我感覺能夠對抗我的憂鬱症。
這就是為什麼我會成為使用虛擬軀體的音樂人。

#TrailsofFlame

Trails of Flame concert meant so much to me, my band members, and also to my fan base.
Trails of Flame的演唱會對我、我的樂團團員還有粉絲群來說都意義重大。

It was in Hong Kong, but so many people from other countries came as well.
As I remember, there were at least three Koreasns! My fans flew all the way to Hong Kong! (laughs)
它是在香港舉辦，但有很多觀眾來自其他國家，我記得至少有三個韓國人！我的粉絲一路飛來香港！（笑）

It still feels like a dream, because there were a lot of struggles.
I lost my voice, I was really worried if I'd be able to sing.
Even my guitarist worried about me a lot, asking things like, "Are you sure that you can hold back your panic attack? Are you sure that you can hold up mentally?"

這仍像是一場夢，因為那是一場苦戰。
我失去過我的聲音，我之前真的很擔心如果我不能唱歌的話怎麼辦。
連我的吉他手都很擔心我，他會問些像是「你確定你能忍住恐慌症嗎？你確定你精神上撐得住嗎？」

There were a lot of struggles, actually, but the concert organizer and all the creators who worked with me were so nice and they had already given me so much power.
那真的是一場苦戰，但主辦單位和所有一起共事的創作者人都很好、給了我很多力量。

And even with Doki, I was originally planning to ask her to sing with me in Live 2D, but she came up with the idea for 3D.
She suggested it herself and said, "I can show up in 3D."
連Doki也是，我原本問她要不要用Live2D跟我一起唱，但她主動提出了3D的建議，她說：「我能用3D的模樣現身。」

We did the POKÉDANCE. (laughs)
The lyrics sound like Japanese, but it's actually English, so I knew that it was going to be easy for Doki to sing even though she doesn't know any Japanese at all, since she's a native English speaker.
我們唱了POKÉDANCE（笑）
它的歌詞聽起來很像日語，但實際上是英語，我知道這對Doki來說會很好唱，即使她根本不懂日語，她是英文母語者。

#SummerSong

I actually wrote "Summer Song", but it was rearranged.
Some arrangement was done by my producer at the time because he heard my demo and he said that it wasn't going to be popular.
"This one's not going to be a hit on the charts." So he raised the key twice.

Summer Song確實是我寫的，但它被重新編排過。
其中一些段落是由我當時的製作人完成的，因為他聽了我的Demo檔之後說這首歌不會紅。
「它不會上暢銷榜的。」所以他提高了兩個key。

He did that because he didn't want me to growl.
He wanted me to sing like an angel because he liked my falsetto voice, but I prefer singing more like I'm screaming and growling, because that makes me feel more comfortable when I sing.
It makes me feel like I'm strong.
So I wanted to perform in that way.

他這麼做是因為他不想讓我嘶吼，他希望我能唱得像個天使，因為他喜歡我的假音，可是我更偏好尖叫跟嘶吼，因為那讓我在唱歌時更自在。
讓我感覺自己很強大。
所以我希望能以這種方式演出。

If you watch the "Summer Song" music video, I think I'm still influenced by focusing more on falsetto, but recently I've been singing more in the style most comfortable to me.
如果你看了Summer Song的MV，我想在唱那首歌時我仍受到「注重假音」的影響，不過最近我更常使用令我感到舒適的唱腔。

#Non-binary 非二元

I decided to reveal that I'm non-binary, because in the past I really, really struggled about gender.
I'm not going to go into too much detail, but I got a lot of hate, and that was fully understandable because I don't believe that everybody can understand my issues fully.

我決定揭露我是非二元是因為過去我曾經對性別非常、非常掙扎。
我不會透漏太多細節，但我被很多人討厭，而這完全是能理解的，因為我不相信人們能真正明白我的問題。

I couldn't be there, actually, but since my fan base wanted me to return, and my friend wanted me to chase the dream again, I decided to return.
So I felt like, if I spoke up and stood up for who I was, I trusted that it would motivate and cheer up some people who really needed that.
I just wanted to tell them that they weren't alone.

老實說，我沒辦法待在那裡，但是我的粉絲群想要我回來、我的朋友想要我再次追夢，於是我決定回來。
所以我感覺…如果我站出來說出這件事，我相信這會鼓勵一些真的需要這些話的人。
我只想告訴他們，他們並不孤單。

I also learned that my fans are really mature and very reliable.
They're ready to accept who I am, and that's the reason why I decided to be more vocal about the LGBTQIA+ community recently.
And I'm happy that my fans are proud of who I am.

我也意識到我的粉絲們真的既成熟又可靠。
他們已經準備好去接受我是怎樣的人，這也是為何我在近期更常為LGBTQIA+社群發聲。
我很高興我的粉絲能為了我是我而感到驕傲。

#Lore_video

It's the superego of me, but most of all in the lore, I include a lot of my actual experiences.
It's probably because I wanted someone to listen to me.
那是我的潛意識(超我)，lore裡的許多橋段包含了我的真實經歷。
這可能是因為我想要有誰能聽我傾訴。

I'm not good at explaining things.
I'm not good at talking.
I'm not good at addressing my feelings at all, and that made people walk away from me.
我不擅長解釋。
我不擅長溝通。
我完全不擅長描述我的感受，而這導致人們離我而去。

And I also didn't grow up ina household where I was paid much attention.
So I needed someone to listen to me, but if I'd just directly told them, that would've been too much, since nobody wants to listen to all those difficult stories all the time.
But if I made it like a fantasy story, it would be consumed as content.

還有，我不是在能備受關心的家庭長大的。
所以我需要有誰來聆聽，但如果我直接講出來，那就太超過了，沒有誰想一直聽那些艱難的故事。
可是如果我把它做成虛構故事，它就會成為被消費的內容。

The reason why I think of Faust as an inspiration for lore is that it's the story of a single guy restarting his life and the devil making his wish come true.
My life has been in danger so many times, actually.
But I'm still here. I'm still alive.

這就是為何我以浮士德作為lore的靈感來源，那篇故事是關於一名單身漢重新開始他的人生，而惡魔實現了他的願望。
事實上，我多次身陷險境，可是我還在這裡，我還活著。

#Better_person 更好的人

I grew up in a really toxic family household.
My family was violent, and the people around me were pretty violent too.
Even though you don't want them to, those environments actually influence you somehow, and you become a really harsh person as well.

我在一個有毒的家庭長大。
我的家人很暴力、周圍的人也都非常暴力，儘管你不想跟他們一樣，可是那樣的環境會在無形中影響你，讓你變成一個相當苛薄的人。

Then I noticed the many ways in which I'm not the same as other people.
I was so afraid people would discover that about me and walk away from me.
接著我發現我有很多地方都跟別人不一樣，我害怕人們發現這點並離開我。

So the reason I keep saying that I want to be a better person is that, although I've made so many mistakes in the past, the people who are still patient enough to comunicate with me, who are still patient enough to listen to me, trust that I can be a better person.

這就是為何我總是說自己想成為更好的人，雖然我犯下許多錯誤，但許多人仍耐心十足地繼續待在我身邊、耐心聽我說話、相信我能成為更好的人。

I've made so many stupid mistakes that caused people to walk away from me.
I can't make those people come back, but at least for those who are still here, I want to be the best person possible.
我犯下許多愚蠢的錯誤，導致人們遠離我，我沒辦法讓那些人回來，可是至少我能為了還留在這裡的人盡可能地成為最好的人。

#Music 音樂

Music was actually a form of escaposm for me at the beginning.
I went to music whenever I wanted to escape from my life experiences, or wanted to forget about my reality or pain.
起初，對我而言，音樂其實是種逃避的手段。
我用音樂逃離我的生活、或用音樂遺忘現實與痛苦。

But now I think that music is a way for me to connect to my fan base, because that's how they've always found me.
可是現在，我想音樂對我來說是與粉絲群聯繫的方式，因為他們總是靠音樂找到我。

When I first did the untitled stream, they found me by singing.
I didn't explain much and they learned that I'm not coming back anymore, but they still decided to follow me and support my new journey.
當我第一次做無標題直播時，他們是靠歌聲找到我的。
當時我不能多做解釋，他們意識到我再也不會回來了，可是他們還是決定要追隨我、繼續支持我的新旅程。

So for now, music is the best way for me to connect with my fan base.
And my fans are really warm, reliable, mautre, and super understanding.
They're really supportive and I really appreciated that.
所以現在，音樂對我來說是與粉絲群聯繫的最佳方法。
還有我的粉絲群真的很溫暖、可靠、成熟、十分善解人意。
我真的很感激他們的賣力支持。

Sometimes I'm afraid to speak or address my feelings, because I'm afraid that people are going to twist the meaning of my words.
A lot of people do that when I speak, but when I convey my feelings entirely through singing, that's the best way for me to express them.
Even if the meaning isn't transferred, the content will be there.

有時我會害怕去說或去描述我的感受，因為我害怕人們會扭曲我的文字，有許多人在我說話時這麼做過。而以歌聲完整傳達我的感受對我而言是最好的表達方式。
即使它的涵義無法傳遞，它的內容仍在那裡。

Yeah- I think music was just escapism at the beginning, but now it's my way of telling how I truly feel.
嗯，我想音樂起初是用來逃避的，但現在，音樂是我訴說真情實感的方式。

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