lol forgot had an operator/marble hornets emote

but, uh. yeah.

I'm sorry

I know this feel

did something new for the first time thursday before we took time off, in part to give time to someone to double check it

so unsurprisingly we did something wrong, which is even more unsurprising since the task was for some reason confusing

but just getting that 'hey this is wrong' message sent my heart racing and it stuck around longer than it should

and kinda fucked us up emotionally for a few hours, especially since we came to the conclusion that our moods are NOT very stable

few weeks ago messed up something else and it also caused stupid anxiety

but, im realizing now, not all the other stuff we messed up cause still learning which is maybe weird

and just idk

we went to the shrink a few weeks ago and didnt say anything about this cause we didnt know it was happening???

but if we contacted him again what good would talking do? we have no idea WHY this might be happening

other than maybe body chemistry?

and maybe cause getting colder SAD or whatever is kicking in

i dont fucking know

may or may not disappear tonight but i guess thats not so weird on monday

not sure if going to go into the office or not tomorrow. last thursday was feeling pretty poorly and figured working from home would be better but didnt

so...idk

maybe try to go and see how it goes and maybe work from home later in the week

or maybe be miraculously better!

again, idk

but i think i disappear into stardew again tonight

sluttyfeet: thx <3

feel a bit better after ranting