it's october 1st and i'm already tired. why am i tired? (it's because i didn't sleep well last night.)

also someone opened my package in the mailroom and stole most of it so that is aces.

oh no!!

it is fine, it was from target for some nonessential cleaning supplies, and they will send a replacement.

i am simply registering my complaint.

anyway getting up and moving is helping with my exhaustion a bit.

one of my october goals is working on sleep, by tracking it more deliberately and making sure my little bedroom nook is as calming as possible.

is this an excuse to buy a new fancy candle? yes.

always a good reason to buy a fancy candle

anyway after all my complaining yesterday turned out to be a good and productive day.

i know what i must learn from this: complain more

i am worried about abigail!! she vomited last night which is a bit unusual for her, but then again, she's a cat.

she is eating and drinking and acting otherwise normal, so i haven't called the vet yet, but i will if she does it again.

oh no! fingers crossed it's nothing and she's okay... i will say in my experience if they're eating/drinking/acting normal they're usually fine

thor had a bout where he just couldn't stop for twelve hours, and the vet couldn't find anything wrong.. i figured out it might have been his food not sitting well? i realized it was any time i gave him something with turkey in it, and now that he only gets fish based things he's been fine

yeah, it's been 24 hours and no vomiting so i think she just ate with too much gusto.

my other thought is i just got a new bag of kibble, so maybe it's a bad batch/something in the food changed.

usually she eats this food and she's fine, but cat stomachs are picky. will try again with this kibble tomorrow.

fingers crossed! hopefully she just ate too fast

solly will also throw up with a hairball if he's been eating. which he usually is he loves food

anyway abigail continues to act normal this morning. i'll try giving her the kibble in the afternoon while i can watch her.

in other abigail news she has a new collar!! her old one was fairly worn out.

my mom asked why she needed to wear a collar, because she doesn't go outside, but i think it is important that she have a cute bell on.

the bell is very important, and i'm glad she's shown no other signs of anything

she had a check-up relatively recently and is a young/healthy cat. her diagnosis: extremely round, soft

an excellent diagnosis

a few days later and abigail hasn't thrown up again so i think we're in the clear.

also i deleted the news widget from my phone and instantly, my mood improved.

my therapist encouraged me to read the news less for my mental health and it feels wrong and awkward but boy does it help

i don't even really get sucked in/doom scroll, i just don't need the apple news algorithm flashing "EVERYTHING BAD IN MIDDLE EAST" at me every time i pick up my phone.

besides the rotating headlines my apple news app mostly serves me like, who what wear clickbait clothing ideas, so that's also something i have no problem trying to cut out.

that might be enough mental health for the day, but no, i will also do my exercise.

i'm glad abigail is fine!!

and yeah i catch up on the news at work since it's one of the few things not blocked by the work internet, and also because it's just easier for my mental health to only check in while im there

I think anyone can benefit by being more deliberate about the content they are consuming and taking proactive steps to make things easier

another positive thing is i have been very dedicated at my cardio habit and i have gotten better at it. i was doing 12/3/10 but i've been experimenting with 12/4 and 15/3…

i don't enjoy this but i have been actually doing it because it is so mindless, which is the most important thing.

i might try taking a weight lifting class at the community college next term because that's the kind of exercise i don't do at all, but we'll see how that works out schedule-wise.

also check out what my work bestie bought for me

i think he's angling for me to dm a campaign though

whats 12/3/10

oh, i typed it wrong, but this: https://www.forbes.com/....

o neat

today is a self care day by which i mean, i got a flu shot.

ugh!! i had an awful morning for various reasons but after having made some food and done some chores i am feeling a bit more put together.

i am not sure why shopping is stressful for me because i like to have things. but especially online i guess i might get decision paralysis? something like that?

i try to conquer an urge to spend compulsively by sleeping on it but sometimes that backfires because i spend too much mental energy consumed with the thing i have not bought yet. why?

why also are the jeans i want out of stock in my size???

i sit down and this appears in my lap

magic

went to see look back with hadal last night and then we got korean fried chicken

all in all: good

she looks so smol in that first picture

OH that LAST PICTURE

she looks soooo happy and comfy

she has a variety of sizes

all of them perfect

she is both big and baby. very powerful abigail.

please tell her i love her

abigail wants second breakfast and she will not be quiet about it.

She and Melly can start a mewnion

our demands: second breakfasts for all housecats, with cat food of choice

(abigail specifically wants the kibble)

Melly does not care about the form of second breakfast so long as it is generous

good news for abigail: she survived until lunch

great work abigail

bad news for me: i'm tired, and i'd like everything to stop

i think i just need to plan an off day, but i have no opportunity to do so for the next week lol. i was too ambitious in my plans.

but maybe i can delay my planned ikea run today at least.

okay, maybe i was just hungry, because i feel a lot better after eating.

maybe i was the one who needed second breakfast.

also i haven't done my workout today yet and usually i would have… another possibility.

someone came up to me on the street today and asked if i "woke up like that"

................................flawless??

like bro i am wearing winged eyeliner??? do men not understand how makeup works???

"actually no it takes me a lot of work."

wh

dude

maybe like beyonce he was talking about your whole deal

possibly lol he was definitely trying to give me a compliment but he also approached as though he was going to ask a genuine question (like, directions or something)

unsettling

reminder to self: vote

she's a melon

also I did vote

she's the cutest melon

her ears puff up the hat

melon!!!

oh gosh she's so cute in the hat

she loves it, obviously