maybe its the lack of confidence speaking but i really dont feel the need / urgency to try and apply to a college scholarship that will only admit me to like .. some really Top Grade schools . like i wanna stay where i live . flying faraway from home and sitting in a dorm just makes me feel really sad at the mere thought
maybe im a bit spoiled thinking that, that i want to stay comfortably instead of going out there to get a better opportunity for myself but im so scared of change lollllll
and im pretty sure theres more applicants who deserve it more than me
ill just try anyway, its what everyone else would want for me . im just thinking about how insistent my teacher was that i submit a form
