[knee update, no pics just doctor talk] I got a pretty good grade in stitches
I'm just gonna paste the email I sent to my coach for details
So....the emotional roller coaster continues
I'm trying to keep things in perspective because even if this breaks bad, it's not remotely the worst thing that could happen. It is, technically, a recreational event and potentially not getting to do a recreational event being the worst thing that's happened to me lately is pretty fuckin' privileged
But I've also poured a shit ton of time, effort and money into preparing for this, and endurance races are inherently emotional so I'll feel justified in having a big (temporary) crybaby fest if I need to. I hope I don't.
One day at a time.
I think both of those thoughts are reasonable and entirely valid to have at the same time. One day at a time! 
Fingers crossed for you
God, I’m catching up with this now and what an absolutely BRUTAL injury... I’m so sorry Jaina, this sucks so bad!! You’ve worked so hard!
wisdombitch: Thanks hon <3 yeah not gonna lie, there has been a fair amount of "how could this happen to meeeeee, I did everything riiiight /simple plan plays in the background". I'm trying to stay positive though, whatever form that takes.
You can get through this! And even if you can't make the run, it's just one run, and you will kick ass on others.
It’s the happy balance of letting yourself wallow a LITTLE but not too much
Yeah exactly. And having a backup plan but not diving too deeply into the details unless I need to.
idk how I'm gonna feel about the finisher's jacket I already bought if I have to scratch Wineglass 
Take care of yourself and don't overdo it. The last thing you want is to affect your ability to run in general.
Bugly42: yeah, the thing everyone keeps stressing (and I agree with) is that it's important not to sacrifice future races for this one.
You're very lucky it's just surface damage and the knee is structurally fine from the look of thigns.
Oh DEFINITELY, I am absolutely thrilled about that
Some of my running buds shared their scars and stories and it turns out three of us have matching knee injuries
(past tense for them)
I don't know if it's legal where you are, but I know my mom used some CBD cream for pain/sensitivity on her scars when she broke her arm.
It's crazy how many things they have that can help with getting pliability.
It's not that painful now, but once the stitches are gone I'm definitely going to look into stuff to put over the scar
Ugh, the downside to letting it dry out is it looks so gross even time I look down lol
sorry you're still having to stress about this, I hope you get good news next week 
The edema is going down (I have a knee shape now!) and the stiffness is now more right on top of the wounds since I'm letting them air dry during the day and they're scabbing, and that's a good healing tenderness but OOH IT BE REAL TENDER
It reminds me of when I scraped the shit out of my knees last year which I'm play with because that involved no stitches.