Just. having trouble drumming up motivation to do anything except browse the net....
I should have had prints drawn for the con I'm going to but I didn't even do that
at least i made a bunch of new merch
I somehow need to screw my head on back right. Somehow
At least I actually woke up in the morning today
like. I do want to do stuff? but i have trouble either getting myself to focus or actually start the thing I want to do
this kinda stuff is like.... a mental switch for me though. i have to wait until something flips in my brain and then i'm suddenly motivated
i'm feeling like i might hit that switch soon. i hope. i wanted to get my shit together after the con
gently touches your shoulder I absolutely understand
i started feeling like doing stuff again because i woke this morning and thought "but what if i actually tried to draw more ratiorine/aventio fanart"
i don't usually draw fanart
i find it really hard to actually
hard to think of scenes and stuff i want to darw
maybe i could use rp as inspiration /thinking emote
my mind has also been begging me to do life drawing studies of muscular dudes but draw ratio
if ratio is really going to drag my life back together it'll be so funny
i definitely want to draw ratio encouraging me.... it might actually help hehe
i should also, ironically, sleep a little less
i find that sometimes being fully rested makes me indolent, or at least lets the anxiety ridden part of my brain have more control than i want
Yeah! Honestly it sounds like you might have ADHD/similar issues so my advice for getting stuff done is set a timer of 20 minutes work, 5-10 minutes break, and repeat until your task is done
It’s helped me a lot when I was struggling with school work
honestly, i don't feel like i have adhd... not that self-diagnosis is reliable in any way but i don't relate to most adhd experiences
self-diagnosis being like doing those online tests that you can use to determine if you should really get it checked out
i am actually quite good at focusing when i really want to
the question is the want part LOL
like i did not have trouble keeping up with animation school which had a 8 course workload
i just uh lived and breathed homework but it all got done in time
my problems are probably of a different nature. maybe anxiety related
wow i was productive and finally got a doctor's appt scheduled
now i need to draw a goose
yeah that sounds more like anhedonia which is a depression type
obligatory question of when did you last get outside your enclosure (do something other than your routine places and things) bc that's a huge factor for me
i have some depressive traits yeah, but my worst point was maybe almost a decade ago. i haven't been that bad since
last time was uhhhh man i can barely remember. pretty sure i left the house in the last week or two
was bamtori really two weeks ago...
i am pretty aware that me being stuck at home has something to do withit
i stopped going on my daily walks back in june, i should restart
maybe actually go lane swimming
just so i can leave the house for longer
"it's not the worst it's ever been" does not mean that what's going on right now 1) doesn't suck 2) isn't depression happening to you
go get out of your house and get some enrichment
i am very aware of my problem i just. am not doing anything about it lmao
i have very low motivation to do things in life in general so it takes sooooooooooo little to slip into depression mode lololol
i actually need motivational dr ratio in my life