i know its stupid to be upset because it doesn't matter to anyone but me but i'm fucking upset

i wanted to stream this weekend, ALL WEEKEND

i wanted to start dawntrail and not stop stream until i finished

but i got more worked piled on me that is going to take prob all weekend to do

i think i should just give up

i've been putting off playing SPECIFICALLY so i could stream it

stream it and not spoil the folks that are likely to drop by because they're already ahead of me

i want to play so i don't get spoiled but i want to fucking stream it

i'm so fucking frustrated

Im sorry that sounds terrible and frustrating.

i'm on the verge of just quitting

it doesn't make me money so it doesn't matter and therefore i'm not given the TIME to make it get to a point where it might possibly make money

its just me playing games and wasting time as far as anyone else is concerned

thanks guys

what really hurts is i feel like i'm finally starting to get somewhere with it

you are def building an audience

which is the most important thing!

it is but if i can't stream it doesn't matter in the end

best i could do is just chatting while i work but i have shit all to talk about

i have the most boring life, no funny or interesting stories to tell

apparently ppl don't talk or do much other than work when doing co-working streams...guess i could do that so i'm at least streaming

anyway i have 18 bags of probably 200 cabochon trays i have to turn into keychains

my day has been made better by watching mouse and also shen responding to me on twitter

i have been working nearly nonstop for 10 hours...

could have been 10 hours deep into dawntrail but nooooo

finally done with that but now i have to wait for the rest to come in

except i still have a billion more circles to cut so i can get ahead of her need for them

end me

figured i'd get the squares cut out so i can turn them into circles tomorrow

i still have three more full sheets but if i can get these done i don't have to worry for a couple of weeks

unfortunately cutting those circles will still take like 5 hours or more

god my arm and neck and upper back all fucking hurt today

also ive only slept like 4 hours

you havce to cut all those circles by hand?!

yup

we tried a punch but could find any the size she needed with a sharp enough blade to cut cleanly

managed to sleep more at least

ugh i gotta get this done but i'm so bored

I’m sorry

and then tomorrow i get to start putting keyrings on 3000+ cabochon trays

maybe not actually that many because idk how many keyrings she ordered BUT that's about how many cabochon trays are in the box

i'm not going to get my hopes but but maybe next friday i can finally start that stream with dawntrail

i'm about halfway through cutting these out hhhhh

ugh good luck

the end is sight...

done but i think i'll go ahead and cut three more sheets until squares so when i have to turn them into circles i can just do that

okay squares cut

yaaaay

give your hands abreak!

i am...until tomorrow

i ended up using the paper cutter to get the squares which idk why i didn't do that before, its so much faster

six bags down

i'm gonna put all the keyrings on from one bag (there are two bags of keyrings) and the rest can just sit here in my room until i feel like doing more

because my thumb is already hurting from the edge of the keyring going under the nail to open it up

filling bag number 7 and dumped out bag 8 (i have extra bags because i did two and a half bags the other night and put them into a much larger bag)