The cats are very confused what I have been doing in the kitchen after their nightly feeding

Woke up to the news that mother and brother are heading home a day and a half early because weather. I will miss my quiet. XD

I'm gonna drink my coffee and then after I feed the cats in half an hour do ALL THE CLEANING

(Not that we made a mess or anything, but there's a couple big things on my list I was gonna tackle over the next two days that I now have to get done before tonight.)

unrelated to anything else because apparently I'm just babbling in here but. good way to hit home how much you've been isolating yourself: literally only my mother remembered my birthday.

i don't mind not doing things or getting gifts but it is the first time in a while i haven't had a friend ping just to say hi and it's kinda sad. and the first time in like 20 years of friendship my best friend didn't, which makes me realize how crap I've been at talking to her this year.

I don't think I'm massively depressed? but I am in a little bit of a hole/rut. and I've basically dried up all remotely social things in my life -- this is literally the only social media I do more than lurk on these days, barely, and I don't even check discord servers I'm in anymore.

so, yeah. I still have not learned how to exist around people, basically, even online and we're not even talking about in person. and every so often something happens to remind me of that.

I also took out like four library books before my mom left twelve days ago and I have not touched them yet, even though I want to. it's just hard to sit and focus on a single thing for any amount of time.

god I hope they get the adhd testing up and running at my therapy place soon because that one, at least, I am fairly sure is to blame on the adhd :/