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sternkind
4 days ago
[vent/mute]
sigh i just need to cry into the void for a bit
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timeywimey
4 days ago
sternkind
4 days ago
i'm so fucking exhausted because i am objectively Doing The Right Things
sternkind
4 days ago
maybe i could eat more veggies or whatever but like
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sternkind
4 days ago
i'm taking my meds, i'm talking to my therapist, i'm trying to move my body more
sternkind
4 days ago
trying to take care of my physical health and get a better sleep schedule
sternkind
4 days ago
but everything feels like shit still and i'm getting really tired of trying
sternkind
4 days ago
i'm not expecting instant satisfaction, that's not it
sternkind
4 days ago
i'm talking about like i've been trying really hard for two years solidly and i don't seem to be going anywhere
sternkind
4 days ago
i'm better? i guess? i'm having less panic attacks
sternkind
4 days ago
but like, i'm not really. i'm so fucking unfulfilled
sternkind
4 days ago
i busted my ass for
nine years
for a masters and 90% of a PhD and i only stopped because i was burnt out and so beaten down about everything
sternkind
4 days ago
like getting my dissertation rejected three times really just tanked me
sternkind
4 days ago
but now i'm trying to get more steady work, like a teaching job or something that pays decently (maybe salaried? lol imagine)
sternkind
4 days ago
and there is just
fuck. all.
sternkind
4 days ago
so what did i even do anything for anyway?
sternkind
4 days ago
now i have a ton of debt and i'm barely scraping by with bills and it's just
sternkind
4 days ago
i've been trying
so hard
to hype myself up about my new job but i'm just not
sternkind
4 days ago
i'm not excited
shinotenshi22
4 days ago
/huggles you
sternkind
4 days ago
it's more of the same unfulfilling bullshit that i've
been
doing and i'm tired of it
sternkind
4 days ago
nothing sparks joy and i'm over feeling shitty all the time
sternkind
4 days ago
i can't even be excited by my birthday because i'll be with my parents and it'll be awful because they always make me feel awful
sternkind
4 days ago
last year was terrible and i don't expect this year to be any better
sternkind
4 days ago
i'm just steadily losing hope of ever feeling anything other than vaguely gross and unhappy
Polterpup
4 days ago
I'm sorry things are so rough for you right now.
Polterpup
4 days ago
sternkind
4 days ago
thank you, lovelies
sternkind
4 days ago
it's not any sort of dangerous "what's the point" just an "i'm tired and need a solid break" sort of mood
merciful death
4 days ago
man, this is such a sucky feeling
job hunting is so demoralizing, but you're doing all the right things
ναℓєяу
Yesterday
Sending you love
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