First off, no apps, no drops. I’m comfortable with things as they are.

not dropping here but I’ve definitely been feeling like I’m spinning my wheels a bit. I kinda fell off this last month because my life is maelstrom of bullshit drama and I hate it.

With the catacombs opening up though, I think that will give me some ideas/juice to work with. I might have Darin take a little more of a passive approach to things next loop. It’s looking like his fortification idea won’t pan out too well and that’s gonna be a blow to him

lol every time he tries to fortify the Staywell the cataclysm I’m month 3 is always an insurmountable force of nature

I’ve thrown everything I can have Darin think of at the mysteries here and I guess I’m a little burned out

He’s not going anywhere I just have a hard time motivating myself to tag right now here.

Darin’s a big loser dork who wants to go on adventures and open up to people

He’s trying and it hasn’t bit him in the ass yet (but I’d love for it to)

He hasn’t been picked up by a crew yet but I get the feeling Cid is going to try

In light of the Garuda event he’s realizing that what Dromas said is true: that he’s weak and ineffective because he refrained from using his powers and his body can’t handle the stress like it should

So I’d like for him to start training with someone

But that means he has to be honest about what he can do

And that terrified him

Terrifies** PHONE STOP FUCKING AUTOCORRECTING FOR FIVE MINUTES

I want him to get a forge going but he’s only been in game a couple of months so I’d like to wait on that for a more realistic time. I’d also like him to have more CR that would encourage that for him so there’s that

He’s still very much at the start of his hero’s journey here so I want him to get some CR that facilitates him being more openly caring

[psls] I want more that’s it that’s the plurk

I don’t care what the plot is. I don’t care if they’re one-off adventures or shippy, self-indulgent nonsense. I’ll take ‘em.

Problem is, and this mentality has kind of permeated all of my rp lately across every spectrum: with everything that’s been going on in my life I can’t shake the feeling that I’m bothering people or that people are sick of me and/or Darin since he’s the only one I actively play.

stupid accidental dick jokes thread is still so fucking funny need 10x more

I know that’s not the case but all of this drama with my mother has honest to god shaken my confidence and made me feel like I’m just...a tertiary smear in the background that’s easily overlooked and dismissed

redfirelight I got you friend I tempered myself in the Gintama mines I’ll write a dick joke Iliad

that's it that's their CR arc
dick joke iliad

Ngl Darin and Garrus being bros has been great. I think it helps that Garrus isn’t human so Darin just feels a lot more comfortable talking to him

I LOVE IT....

im glad ME2/3 are so. wild because half the weird shit in games doesn't hardly faze Garrus anymore

Like, in his canon the eastern continents are beastkin and demonkin and I’ve never written him getting there but I always imagined he’d find it full of people that looked more like him with crazy anime hair and abilities and people would just...accept him without question

And that’s kinda what Garrus is doing

Darin over here like “I can crush an anvil with my bare hands” and Garrus just pats him on the shoulder like “let me tell you about Krogans”

LMF YEAH

And Darin is just

i WISH we could get like. Grunt. because that would be incredible

Like he’s so happy not to be shamed or have someone gawk at him and be treated as just a dude who can do that

busts in here and fucking shakes you

we love darin he's great cut that out

leaves

JEN YOU DON’T SPEAK FOR THE WORLD

incorrect, i do

watch as people +1 my opinion

+1

also want to say as a mod that maybe we have not been clear enough—Darin's fortifications HAVE definitely had an impact!! the reason some folks have been surviving the ends of the cycles is bc of him

it used to be a town-wide instakill but because he's been building shit up, some folks have been making it

which is!!! very cool of him

also the fact that the catacombs are open now instead of later is bc of all his cistern-punching!!! mostly I just wanted you to know that darin has had a massive impact on the setting and that we really appreciate how you throw him at things, even if it doesn't always work 100% icly

Fhisfneofhf interplanetary shit I hope I didn’t come off as complaining about that I know Darin’s contributions have done a lot

no not at all!!

I’m not complaining at all it’s more that my brain is pudding from the hard swerve my life has taken and that maintaining Darin’s endless energy is draining lol

KICKS DOOR IN

am i murdering darin or am i finding darin murdered EITHER WAY

But thank you so much that really is nice to hear

I just know that sometimes it's hard to come up against IC nos in the setting

and I am always worried broadly that folks don't know how many cues we're taking from y'all

so I wanted to make sure you knew that is all no worries

I can totally see why it's hard to keep up his energy with everything going on for you

Oh god no I love it when you guys shut me down this has been like an rp escape room and I personally love bashing my head against these walls

whyellewhy I THINK LIGHT IS GONNA DO IT but also it was posited in the chat that Darin go down like Julius Caesar with a bunch of his friends attacking him and it’s lived rent free in my brain

LMAO

i come to protec
kill u anyway

I can’t tell if this is in rp or irl

it can be both

I'm still 100% down to have Light backstab Darin but I also think "everyone in the vicinity of Darin suddenly gets the simultaneous urge to go full Ides of March" would be great fun, especially considering his arc of taking on more leadership!

it also means i can take a swing at light (X

I'd also be thrilled to get Darin and Ademnet talking in the catacombs so Ademnet can get a broader view of him beyond "that guy who barks at coyotes"

adamnet: whos that guy who barks at coyotes
cece: oh thats my fiance
adamnet: ..hm. ok

Ademnet: yeah I keep forgetting straight people are weird

LMFAO he's so right sobs

Darin: I think I’m gonna take on more leadership. Maybe I really can be a leader
Everyone: stabs Darin in the rotunda
Darin: message received loud and clear

Also I plan on getting back to pool party tags don’t worry. I do want Ademnet and Darin to talk more when he’s less feral

I say less because he’s never not a little feral

It's fine, Ademnet's a feral child at heart he just has Great Anxiety

They'll vibe

If you want some pirate-y friendship, I'm sure Shoto wouldn't mind. He loves having friends lol

I would love that honestly